It comes in waves,
tidal waves
gripping your insides
swallowing you whole
dragging you out
into the abyss of
its darkness
and no life preserver
can save you from
drowning in
your own thoughts

SOS
my brain
is battling my
body again
and im afraid
this time
I wont win.

My stomach ties itself into knots
and forms into a hard lump
in my abdomen
and I wish I could throw it up
and throw it out
So I wouldn’t get sick
thinking about you
anymore.

And what do you hope to find
when you’ve lost yourself in my eyes
what do you think is hiding in the
deep recesses of my mind?

I've started hating all
of the music that
I love
and maybe it’s because
I hear you in every
song

Will I miss you
or just the feel of
your jaw cupped
in my hand
and my fingers
tracing through
your hair
and your soft
soft skin
I wanted to
feel forever

drink drank drunk
the night was young
but I woke up feeling
20 years older
right back in that place
where my wrists feel
sensitive to the touch
because my mind
has lashed them
over and over and Ive
thought of how the
blood would taste on
my tongue
and if it would still
consist of the liquor
I drank
that ruined everything.