To my sweet love,
My name is beautiful
My name is unique
My name is silly
My name is happy
My name is lovable
My name is smart
My name is carrying
My name is compassionate
My name is empathetic
My name is trustable
My name is patient
My name is everything in the world
My name is anything you want it to be
But of course you don't realize
All the names I possess
But that doesn't bother me
Because I know exactly what you are
And what you are
Is something that I don't have

The world is spinning all around her
And she doesn't know how to make it stop
Everything she felt is fading into dust
Nothing she knows is being seen
All her treasures were sunk
to the bottom of the ocean
And won't ever return to the surface
The only love she knows
is the one she keeps hidden inside
her burning soul
Secured so tight in her safest dreams
Where no one dares to look
But that's the way it's always been
And there is nothing she can do
To change that
Some days she even pretends
She is just like everybody else
So that no one
can see the pain in her eyes
Or the devistaion
in her soul
But at the end of the day
She will still be standing all alone
Just like its always been
As the whole world spins for her
And she can't make it stop!

Death is knocking at my door,
Black stained with white shadows,
Nothing remains of his eager presents,
But a sad tragedy of life.

My heart, merely open,
is incapable of loving.
Life is nothing but life for the living,
I tell myself, life is not worth living,
For my misfortunes are not accepted,
Nor regarded for praise.

Death and I both know there
Is nothing left in the world,
To seek happiness in a dying life,
There will never be content in
The hurricane of storms that
Roam my thoughts,
Drowning my entire essence,
Covering the wedge I live upon.

We have an understanding,
He and I.
One in which we must obey,
That when I am tired and useless,
My life shall shatter and fall.

But I am still waiting,
On that faithful day,
One in which he and I
Understand that life
Is useless for the living.

But till then,
I am patiently waiting,
Waiting to stop fearing of horror,
And start my life in harmony,
For I am not his slave.
And life is worth living.

Our friendship is like
a never ending distant wave
Searching through the ocean
But nothing to find
Nothing to change

Your inspiring spirit
As well as your loving heart
Can never be replaced

If not for you, then who?
If not or then, when?
How can I imagine life without
The sweet soaring laughter
Of all our enjoyments

Some may say say we are good
Others say we are destined
But I believe  the sunlight
From heaven shined upon our souls
Going through life without you
Is like going through life without air

Your roaring smile gives hope
To all my strengths in life
And as our our friendship grows stronger,
That wave will continue to wash
Through the brisk, clear ocean
Of never ending happiness!

He comes to me in the day of night,
Wanting more from my heart.
He claims that life is nothing but a dream,
And dreams are left to be envied.

He thinks of his father in back of his mind,
Aching to hear him speak his mind.
"Dance with the desire of your heart" he says to me.
But how can you dance when all you want to do is run?

"You can call me your savior" he whispers in my ear.
"Or your Jesus ascend".
"We will fight this world of nightmares together,
With the beat of our hearts"
Loud as we thump through our destiny of dreams and chaos.

Oh, how he makes me feel so safe and strong.
In a wounded world so depleted of life,
The only strength to bare is the beat in our hearts.
The fearlessness in his eyes rages like a fire,
Burning so bright,
Captivating the air of lungs, my heart, my soul.

So come to me in the dawn of night,
Leave me in the wake of morning.
I'll be here to wake your fantasy,
And save you from your enemies.
Take my hand, as we embrace the light of darkness
In each others faded dreams.

He carries me through the night on his wasted dreams,
And his battered soul.
He lives his life in the palms of his pockets
Drenched in the cold agony that wakes his dreams.

"The Stars between our eyes have ways to go" he says.
"But I'll wait the distance of eternity to see your dreams come true".

So we waited,
In the time of desperation,
And the wake of dawn.
My dreams never came true.
And all that arose was chaos.

Years pass,
As eternity fades,
And the only hope left to save a is faded mask,
With what little hope I have left,
For conquering my dreams.

I dare you
I dare you my son
To take off that faulty mask
and show your true colors
For you are no special god
no special creature at all

You made me believe in
hope, destiney, love at first sight
But I guess believing
is not worth knowing
until that mask has been
torn upon your face;
Glowing below the moonlight
To show the world
your monstrous form

My heart has been shattered
into thousands of pieces
But you won't dare bother
to pick them up
To be that brave warrior
And clean up the horror
you have thrusted upon me

I used to look into your eyes
And see the heavens
shining from above
Giving hope to all
my weaknesses in life

But now all I see is a ***** mask
Filled with unwanted
critters and clumpy dirt

You may as well love me
But I certainly
do not love you back
Knowing that wonderous mask
appeals to your face

Silence has faded out now
Let go of my hand
And let my heart
****** to the ground
Watching me sink
in the hurricane of my wonders

Dont follow me
Don't try to come back
Because now I see your true colors;
Black and white
No life
Just a prison
Captivated by torn walls

I loved you
I will always love you
But as long as that mask
is thrown on your face
My heart will never come

As I enter the doors
I feel this rush of adrenaline
overcoming my body
I take a few steps forward,
Then suddenly stop to take a deep breath
I then start walking again
I keep my pace, with my shoulders broad
And chin high above me
I turn to the left

Oh no! There he is!
The one who I desperately would die for
I can sense his eyes skimming through the hall,
Looking for an excusable reason to be left alone
I quickly turn right down the stairs
Trying to avoid our awkward language
we call silence

Then I see my best friend
The one who I love secretly hate
We exchange hugs
Then leave unsatisfied
I keep still for a few moments
Thinking that I do not belong here
Nor will I ever
I try to make a run for it

But then my head keeps spinning
I don't know what to do
So I just sit down
Take a deep breath
And put on a fake smile
Just like the rest of them!

Life is but a song,
A different kind of song,
It marches to its own drum beat,
Yet repeats the chorus
to idealize the past.

It begins with a story,
And ends with a solution,
I can see what life is like
When each lyric stripes a memory,
And each memory plays a chord.

Years and years can even pass
For the final thought
In that special song,
But when the time comes,
You know you have
Passed right through.

Completing your song
Into a world class masterpiece,
One where history will never
Forget your inspiring words,
As you keep in tune
With reality.

Writing about all your struggles,
Until one day,
For when the time comes,
You have created the worlds most
Sweetest melody.

Come to me, my sweet melody,
For we belong in a universe of chaos.
Come to me, my shining sun,
For we shall dance in eternal misery.

How the softness of our hearts,
Have melted into the fire of frustration.
Come to me in my dreams,
For we need to meet again.
For We haven't formally met,
Let me introduce you to my dark demons.

Oh how I long to be held in your arms,
How I wish you could love me,
Over and over,
Like an endless circle raging around the stars.

Call me from dusk to dawn,
Lie with me beneath the moon.
Warm my head with your ponderous thoughts.
Oh how I wish we could spend forever in each others arms.

But sooner or later,
Forever would become sour sorrowness.
And I know that once we meet,
Our flames of passion
Would turn into flames of misery.

So come to me, my shining sun,
We shall make the worlds greatest melodies.
Let us sing our hearts out,
Until we have none left to bare.

Your eyes are like the passionate
Moon of yesterday's sunset
Your lips are like the everlasting
Omen to my soul
Not once, but many times
You have stolen the key to my heart
Never bothering to return it
I can only imagine what life is like
Outside these thick walls
Keeping me a prisoner of your
Irresistible temptation
Energy runs fast through
My pulsing veins
As your appearance
Turns my way
When we are not together
My heart goes blank
Like a white sheet of paper
Drifting through the lonely wind
Swiftly swaying to a gentle stop
Landing in the empty space
Called love
And when there is no love,
There is no happiness
When you are not around

Open your heart to me,
And you will see all
The wonders that can be,
Shed some light
On your scolded heart,
And you will conquer the fear
That hides in your soul,
To escape the prison walls
That turn you inside out.

Open your heart to me,
And your soul will never
Lose its love for life,
To be enlightened by
The suns epic rays,
Dancing in the wilderness,
With the courage that embraces
Your true colors,
To capture all of life's bad intensions,
And embrace all that you can be.

Open your heart to me,
And you will understand
What it truly means to be loved,
To be accepted in a dying society
Filled with hatred and agony,
For my heart will never stop
Beating for you,
For it is wide open,
Waiting for you to break out,
To take our love for
What it is.

I always thought it be
The two of us,
Me and you,
Sitting along the golden river,
Looking into each others eyes,
Knowing that we would
Never separate from this moment,
As the suns rays shined
Upon our souls,
As we both laid on the
Wet, wet grass,
Soaking our clothing,
For we would keep each other warm,
And never let each other go.  

We would trust one another
To keep each other safe
And warm,
Promising one another
That we would never dare
To hurt each other.

But instead, reality overshadowed
My dreams,
And the nightmare I was
Afraid of awoke me,
With a thundering roar,
Slapping me so hard
With an exhausting rush,
A suffocating curse
That shattered my
Perfectly assembled heart.

I always thoughts it would
Be the two of us,
Sharing our first kiss,
Imprinting our souls
On each other,
Loving one another
For eternity.

But reality overshadowed
My dreams,
And the nightmare
I was afraid of
Came true,
Laughing in my face,
Scaring my heart for good,
As I try so hard
To re assemble my
Broken parts
That fell into the hurricane
You built.

Clumsy you, clumsy me
How in the world
did we think this would work?
You and your selfish games
And me with my attention to detail

Oh how not only
you Let me see the other side
But you also fooled me into thinking
That you loved me

Oh Silly me, silly you
This would not have
made a good match
For we both loved each other
But never truly persued
How my respect for you
perished in the fire
Once I knew that you also
Loved someone else

Oh how ignorant I was
The dumbest genius
I have ever known
For I saw with my heart
And loved with a blind eye

Oh how we are destined
To be seperated
Yet drawn to each other like magnates
That never loose strength
And how much in love we still are
But live in two seperated worlds
That we will never undersatand

The difference between me and you:
I'm not afraid to show who I am, who I want to be, and why I love the person I am today!

I'm like a wall
A stern girl who sees nothing but the light
Try to break through me, tear down my flesh, aggravate my soul
But I  will still be standing
Strong as ever
Reaching the sky with both hands held high
And my smile as big as ever
For I have known I have succeeded life's test
And the intension of growing like a flower
blooming in the mid spring air
To dare anyone who challenges my existence
And the reaction of my fate
For I am the commander of myself
And lead the direction I will go

We walk a distance of
A thousand suns,
Once Filled with
Ice cold hearts,
And acks of the
sorrow filled souls,
We dance through a kingdom
Hand picked by phony cowards,
That only dream of daring,
Although we can't escape
This prisoned life,
We know our destination
Is here.

Brawling through ones desires,
Captivating the truth with
One stripped heart,
As time counts down
Till the end,
Our time has come,
And it is now or never,
To save this world from
Infinit polluted distruction.

I can feel it in my skin,
The desire to want to be more,
To inhale all the potential
Inside my mind,
Carving the integration of
New man,
Standing out, isolated
From the rest,
To only find the lack of
Security in the world.

I know the truth hidden
Beneath the soul,
The high definition of
Absolution,
Creeping upon the surface
Of devotion,
Which only encourages
The mans spirit,
To lye under the stars
And daydream
Of a better world,
Better yet, why not start
A revolution.

Lighten my eyes
With the intensity of love,
To embrace my compassion
With the warmth of others,
And encode the
Meaning of life's purpose.
However old it may seem,
Or claim to be,
The world is never too rigid
For those who demand change.

Because in the end,
I don't know who I am,
Nor does anybody else.
So let's all join hands
And be unknown together,
Because without knowing
The potential of life,
We cannot dream of
A better future,
Encompassed by love.

Guilt is the omen that sits inside my soul,
Dangling the keys of my sorrowful heart,
It yearns to be set free by the empty hole,
That consumes my body like a foolish dart,
How can one thrive,
Yet ***** by the sin of life?
My love who keeps me alive
Whom I do not call my wife.
How my lies captivate all my joy,
And imprison my thoughts that rage inside,
For my actions make me feel like a silly boy,
Too scared to endow my foolish pride,
The end has come for me to fall into piece,
The end has come for me to never live In peace.

I am done!
I surrender!
Take me as I am,
Or leave me to rot
In this polluted ground,
Because I am done!

Trying to accomplish
What was never meant
To be touched,
Feeling suffocated in
A world that only
Fears to love,
Crushing a fractured
Soul to make ones
Broken heart feel
Just as new.

Being sung by the most
Hurtful melodies that
Can only be seen
In the darkness,
Playing games to
Replace the love
That was never found.

Stepping one step forward,
As the rest of the world
Steps one step back,
For the billion lost
Hearts can never
Be replaced.

Nor can thy build
The foundation to give up,
Barley remembering
What "love" truly means
In the eyes of a faded soul,
Hearing the secret sorrows
Of the pain that will
Never be healed.

For I want to forget
The cruel world,
And live in peace,
But I, too, would
Fade into darkness,
Knowing that
The world Cannot
Be saved.

I wish I could take away
All your pain and agony,
To make your bleeding heart
Stop drowning,
And secure your lungs
With the warmth of mine,
To undo all your suffocation
Thrusted upon you by others.

I know life is
Hard for you,
But you do not
Have to worry,
For I too am dying in this
Reality if nightmares,
And cannot stop all the horror
That I feel,
Nor can I dance in depression
That overcomes my soul, either.

Life for me
Has never been easy,
And although I have
Every reason to stop trying,
I have convinced the world
That I am capable to escape
All the prisons it has
Set for me,
And Maybe it is time
That you should too.

So my lovely,
Even though you feel
As though you will
Never be understood,
Or accepted,
Just stay calm,
And remember, I am always
Thinking about you,
And I will always be
Here for you,
No matter the conditions.

Never doubt my loving heart,
Nor my powerful empathy,
For I see the pain
In your broken soul,
And sense the throbbing pain
Others make you feel,

Just always know
That although you may
Be hurting,
I am hurting a thousand times more,
Knowing that this reality
Has stolen your beautiful
Love for life,
Just because you are
A little different.

I cry not for me
but for you
desperately achieving the goals of society
unknowingly striving for acceptance
when all you need is yourself
fighting fire with fire
when all you need is a taste of rain
your hunger for power and cruelty does not suprise me
but only you, yourself, can change
how you perceive the expectations of life and society
for evil does not have to consume your soul
nor is it needed to accomplish any tasks
all you need is some light in your dark pathway
and maybe, just maybe, you can one day learn to love

I saw the black crow, once,
On a long journey
When finding myself,
His eyes had the sadness
Of the worlds pain,
As his spirit drifted
By the anthem of
His own memories,
When the sky was grey,
With the horror filled calling
Of the sunrise in the morning,
He knew a new day had come,
To swallow his pain and
Feed off of someone new,
Symbolizing a new adventure had  
Come to take away his pride.

Although he never knew much,
He always had the heart
Of a thousand stars,
All clustered on the
Center of the moon, shining
For the entire galaxy
To be astonished by
his powerful spirit.

Even though he felt insignificant
And unimportant, he always
Found a way to fly
Out if the darkness,
And turn into something new,
Drifting along with the lovely
Wind, turning the world
Into what it one day should be.

In the end,
Although many whitenessed
The back crow,
I was fortunate to
See the back crow,
Exactly for what it was,
Spreading its black broken
Wings, reaching for the sky,
With the hope if one day
Gaining the beauty to truly live
In a world that understands
His true nature.

Life is a spirit, a dying spirit,
It captivates ones mind,
And soul,
Turning it to unwanted nightmares,
To ruin the good memories
That were once built,
To protect the invasive horrors
That **** the immediate life
Out of ones heart.

When all the worlds fears
Begin to bleed out,
And the jailed prisoners
Who pray for happiness
Are overwhelmed,
Life, the dying spirit,
Will chase us with its own
Agony and desire,
To reach the peak
Of its highest destination,
And **** the life of many
Who once loved to live.

Life, may as well
Be the only to live,
But without anything
That is good to live for,
The life I live
May as well be the nightmare
That I cannot wake up from.

The monsters that once ruled my head,
Have come creeping out, ready to play.
Gnawing through the dark forest that lingers under my bed,
Waiting to **** the joy of a new day.
Fiercely capturing the hope of tomorrow.
Threatening the light to my existence.
Drowning my mind with such painful sorrow.
So determined to destroy my persistence.
Holding me captive on an endless voyage.
Recreating the dark to shape the shadows of my pain.
Staining my emotion with such inhumane rage.
Stealing the thrown that keeps me sane.
They have come to raid my skin,
But I will never let them break in.

Time has run out,
Years and years have passed,
But no sign of you.
I have been waiting
All this time,
But you never bothered
To show up.

Should I give up,
Or stand tall
And keep trying for your love?
Because I promise you,
I have had enough
Of your selfish games.

You can ethier surrender
Your sweet love to me,
Or walk away
With your solemn pride,
Because time has run out,
And I am no longer waiting
To be rejected by you
Ever again!

You left me standing alone,
In the pouring rain,
With nothing to bear
But the cold, wet water rushing
Down my face,
Nothing to hold on to
But the past.

And now I see you, in your
Most missable state,
Watching your new love
Act as if nothing is wrong,
As you put on the biggest
Fake smile that can be put,
But the truth is you have no one,
As you have nothing to
Hold on to.

So in the end, we, the destined ones
Could never stay long enough
To hold each other,
To keep our broken hearts warm
As the suns rays
Shined on our heart.

All I can say is it's too bad,
Because words can never express
The betrayal I feel when I see you,
Or the old love I used to believe in.