Baby turn me sideways flip me upside down I like all ways my brain is topsy turvy maybe I’ve been flipped too many times my nine lives all blur together each life I try another each life a new lover each life I meet my sisters and my brothers falling in line in the new day new way we’re taught to fall in line no jail not today I breathe and live for freedom for me for this society we all breathe free we all speak free we all should have the right to our voice and our vote, see death happens round us all the time but it’s not every day you see nazis running for government parties to take seats in offices when they should be behind bars, see death happens round us all the time but it’s not every day you see lynchings of black boys and black girls missing and stabbed and the presidency’s lying on tv, see death happens but you don’t usually see it happen, see the young kids in death camps call it what you want I call it how i see it, see em ripped apart  from mom and dad, see em grow up in camp no loved ones had, see us no health care just pop us full of drugs, see us no future just throw us in human trafficking no one will see I see, see death happens round us all.

From 12356 to 3 it numbs me fills me but this is to free me so that I don't let it freeze me
Keep mentioning this Dayton hell hole hoping no ****** kills close to home but it does
It goes and it spreads and this love hoping to heal hasn't stuck in their brains but it will
It will
It will
This love will heal
I remember puking mac and playing games trying to ride Sam while I'm making friends
Cooking some eggs for pj in the mornin just wishing I could never go home again
But we rack back and I leave again we rack back and I come again and rack back to the circus track again
We’re learning to breathe and walk again but in my home I'm suffering I choke on ribbon while we’re partying
In my dreams we die I think
And I think I am your shrink
And my shrinks your god you speak of me you think of him it's all the same we are the sin
I am the daughter you are the son we are each other it's already done I love and live and feel this way but because of you I stray today or maybe the thoughts the opposite it’s all me burning me
It's all my doing its all on me the negativity is killing me but it still falls back on you you you.

Do I run or do I fight I lay down my pity and I give up tonight
Give up on pain give in to love give up my sorrows to the the heavens above
Giving up my suicide tendencies giving up the control of self harm, ma please
I’ll come clean later I’ll tell the truth someday but today is the day where I take for my own sake and I take what’s given to me
Drugs, give em to me, love, give em to me
If only I could give up the demons in me
Spirits I thought wasted away always coming up when least expected before I try to wash em out again
I beg my partners to stay but I can’t expect them to hold fire with their bare hands
Nothing rhymes nothing times right all my loved ones building their empires and I’m sitting in my lonesome box, please pray
Will we forget our gender norms will we forget the lies that society told will we forget what we came here for
Bouncing back between planets I’ve got the eye of my soul twin twinkling will our ether bodies ever meet
I’ve got a bleak soul I’ve got tremendous turmoil I just want fire and water to exist in harmony with each other
When the words flow they don’t know what they’re saying they’re just part of the music making of our soul ticks of existence
I’m trying hard to not let it bleed
I’m trying hard not to scream I’m trying I’m trying I’m trying please just let me be
I never want y’all to see me like this unless I’m dying and crying and reaching for some kind of sign
Please stay with me through the storm please babes I need your more now than ever
I need to be at peace I wish death would take me and my life cease
Please babes just know I’m trying but when you turn your backs I’ll be crying

Remind me of my past remind me of mom playing the piano remind me of pots and pans and the alcoholic rams and the shams and the shame of the shenanigans peek over my shoulder it’s my lover never another this one is forever and my heart keeps beating and my feet dance and my laughs prance and my mind falls back again into the past this depression stinking up the game I feel like my whole life is to shame a better version of myself for you to tame it’s not your job but I’m here I’m living weird I’m a little queer I’m falling sober the rain might be over but the pains left holes with names and memories in each one some have graves they never will truly leave us some should have graves from the pain they wrought within us I’ve dug my grave I’m not counting anymore on anything but you this lifetimes starting over

I can’t keep loving you from the depths of my mind
Fantasy fairytales from unrequited lovers left behind
Your mask reminded me of devils haunting but bare naked now I see into your soul
Can’t keep burning can’t keep numbing can’t keep this fire in me don’t make me beg
All this fleeing back between the puppy ******* I’ll follow you till my death
My friends tell me I deserve better and you deserve better too
Why can’t I ever seem to matter to anyone who matters to me my soul is screaming
Nothing was ever meant to happen this way
Catching feelings for lost boys who never seem to want Wendy to stay
I am realizing again in this life that nothing worth it seems to last
Good friends are hard to come by but will always out-stand my crushes company o

Make me forget the pain make me forget my brain make me live better for the grain and no longer live in shame make me love like you love me make me shine like you shine to me make me laugh and dance and sing with you I feel blue boo shake me up with your sunshine

Every line from every time I don’t have anything to say
Every word that could have been heard I pray the end of the tumultuous ways
Of my brain dead skull of how mental illnesses steal your soul of how many times I’ve tried but I’ll get back up no lie
There won’t be no last time there won’t be no sad times there won’t be anything but positive thinking for the rest of our lives
Pushing forward opening doors and learning humans from the core
Never a bore chilling but myself I’m bored and cringing
Surrounding yourself with the living it’s the community that’s life giving
Say that again be kind to people cause everybody’s grieving
Say that again we all need each other and all we need is love
Say that again say it say it
I love you

Nap it tap it everybody’s bat **** don’t know how to take **** always going on about a lick what ******* time is it 5:54 to 5:55 we seeing repeating numbers from the fours to the fives y’all realize we all got nine lives right
Left brain doing yo thang fight it out rub it in pushing for a better dimension y’all hate sin we all got sin y’all screaming Jesus’s name but you don’t know how to better yourself from within
In me just like you I like Jesus too but he was just a witch like me boo don’t be mad I’m only playing but really didja know Jesus was gay and guess what he black too my dude was for sure as **** cool
Chillin with travelers and drug addicts and *** workers and y’all ain’t mad about it but if ya can’t transfer that **** to reality then guess what ***** your religion is really just a fantasy world girl
Y’all live your blissful lives while living on blissful lies and y’all don’t do **** you don’t even try to help someone less fortunate than you y’all basically spit on us while we walk by
Calling us slurs and acting crazy I ask you is this how you pray to your God babe?
I mean y’all don’t get me wrong I’m queer whitey from the suburbs but the sick **** ain’t so slick no more we older and I’m calling out the hypocrisy on my own turf so we can pave a better way for us all to live at peace on Mother Earth.
Get past it move on the spirituality of the human soul is coming on we screaming fire we're flying on water we're all born as daughters y’all trying pushing the breaks on feminism but I don’t think you quite yet understand the new waves or what it says we’re singing inter-sectionalism we’re singing gender is on a spectrum sexuality is not what you may think it may be finding our true selves should be our first priority but times up the sun is coming up we turn our Luna crown away as the new day brings on capitalism half of me weeps while I start my daily grind to survive half asleep

I’m in my cocoon shaped tomb I’m amidst my nine lives womb the majesty will be coming soon I’m singing my eon old tune I’m singing I am I am I bloom

I’m afraid to say it I’m afraid to pray it I’m afraid to breathe it into existence what if that’s what this is what if that’s what we’re doing we’re just learning how to pray from the time we were little babes till the time we’ve grown up all the way teaching ourself the same things teaching our friends and familys our upbringing reteach reteach redo redo it’s all a circle in my mind boo

I’m sorry my brain belongs to a crazy person
Cmon give me a ride I’ll jump in the hearse and
We can go to a place where we’ll never be hurting
I’m scared of the methods of travel but I just want the destination
Where our souls rest before the next test of raising humanities vibration
Our frequency’s bumping and lumping our chains to the floor
I’m running and jumping for that sweet old death door
I’ve seen so many go past please come protect me and fast
Witch tendencies are keeping me free but I don’t know how long it will last
Potions and spells keep me grounded to this earth keep me holy
I think I’m going crazy anyone experienced telepathy lately?
I hear you and me and everyone, what is empathy, where is it coming from?
I grab my citrine on my choker I beg for positivity
I pray and manifest my future I need some change to come to me
I don’t know why I live this life, I think I’ll join my loved ones on the other side
Please,
Is it my time or am I giving up, I'm so tired of living in this rut
Put all my energy into these words, I think all of us truly just wanna be heard
My dad thinks he’s a prophet, society thinks he’s clinically insane
Am I the same way, who is this crazy person in my brain

Y’all don’t see me as a guy y’all don’t see me as a girl I’m here to bust your binary bubbles this witch is queering up your world

Car reverse beeps and owl coos
6 in the morning I’m blind like a fool
Blunt I’m no small runt you can eat my ****
Frontin smoke you don’t know what I **** it’s ghosts and blind men straight from the beginning I’m just tryna so I can get my future living
Seeing true maybe it’s from the owl coos birds and insects chirp the squirrels chirp my cat chirps we’re all cute animals going for the ****

I’m
Quitting
Cigarettes
I’m
Catching
My
Breath

Suicidal when I’m pmsing
But I’m still alive we’ll call it a blessing
Imma try to tell my story if I cry don’t mind it just try to learn my lessons
True love shouldn’t be a tragedy
I romanticize our relationship but just like Romeo and Juliet there is no happy endings
This love is poison, an addiction, and I’m in recovery
Rehab is a love story, a sad story
My mind is going numb with your absence
I’m trying so hard to keep my cool
I choke down my tears, my fears, I just wish they taught about this in school

I don’t know how to talk about it
I write it out and I fight the urge to cry about it
Pink sharpie pen on paper I’m feeling my words come to life
I keep saying it’s not fair but it’s fine I’ll be alright
But now I have a broken leg for the rest of my life
Learning how to walk again I’m scared of surgery I’m afraid I’ll never run again
Just keep talking about how I want to fly away
I miss you so much everyday
But we’re not good for each other it’s toxic
We should have called it off after the first hits
After the beatings and cheatings why did we go on like this