I’m afraid to say it I’m afraid to pray it I’m afraid to breathe it into existence what if that’s what this is what if that’s what we’re doing we’re just learning how to pray from the time we were little babes till the time we’ve grown up all the way teaching ourself the same things teaching our friends and familys our upbringing reteach reteach redo redo it’s all a circle in my mind boo

Every line from every time I don’t have anything to say
Every word that could have been heard I pray the end of the tumultuous ways
Of my brain dead skull of how mental illnesses steal your soul of how many times I’ve tried but I’ll get back up no lie
There won’t be no last time there won’t be no sad times there won’t be anything but positive thinking for the rest of our lives
Pushing forward opening doors and learning humans from the core
Never a bore chilling but myself I’m bored and cringing
Surrounding yourself with the living it’s the community that’s life giving
Say that again be kind to people cause everybody’s grieving
Say that again we all need each other and all we need is love
Say that again say it say it
I love you

Y’all don’t see me as a guy y’all don’t see me as a girl I’m here to bust your binary bubbles this witch is queering up your world

I’m in my cocoon shaped tomb I’m amidst my nine lives womb the majesty will be coming soon I’m singing my eon old tune I’m singing I am I am I bloom

I’m
Quitting
Cigarettes
I’m
Catching
My
Breath

I don’t know how to talk about it
I write it out and I fight the urge to cry about it
Pink sharpie pen on paper I’m feeling my words come to life
I keep saying it’s not fair but it’s fine I’ll be alright
But now I have a broken leg for the rest of my life
Learning how to walk again I’m scared of surgery I’m afraid I’ll never run again
Just keep talking about how I want to fly away
I miss you so much everyday
But we’re not good for each other it’s toxic
We should have called it off after the first hits
After the beatings and cheatings why did we go on like this

Suicidal when I’m pmsing
But I’m still alive we’ll call it a blessing
Imma try to tell my story if I cry don’t mind it just try to learn my lessons
True love shouldn’t be a tragedy
I romanticize our relationship but just like Romeo and Juliet there is no happy endings
This love is poison, an addiction, and I’m in recovery
Rehab is a love story, a sad story
My mind is going numb with your absence
I’m trying so hard to keep my cool
I choke down my tears, my fears, I just wish they taught about this in school