I long to be ever present
Leaving an iredescent trail
Of hope
passing time with self reflection
Apathetic idealisms
Lived,  having longed for grandeur
Died,  having harbored resentment
A day passes with mediocre happiness
A night dawns with dysmorphic sadness
Lay with me from dusk till early morning bleakness
Find me alone and cold

Solitude, is deafening
The altitude is reassuring
Watching leaves take flight
Slowly descending
The Gust of the breeze
Pushes me closer
Im High above the forest
No more am i chained to
An empty existence
The birds call me
Carefree and lively
Wish me farewell
Im no longer part if your
Shutterless home
No more blinding flourescent light
Ultraviolet warmth is caresesing
Providing solace, something
I never could give you
You only want me when
Im around, never when we part
You cannot touch me
When im dancing recklessly
You cannot change me
When im running into the wind
Try to catch me
Faster than light
Lighter than air
Time is all i have
Something you try to beat
That is me
Mystifying, the more you try to comprehend
The more you become transfixiated
Ease yourself into my
Madness, we'll linger
Together, lost in infinity

The windy night we met
The dark streets
Warm asphalt
The lively calls of the dark
I must've met you
In another life
The casual intimacy
The caressing and
Forlorning for
Each other's spirit
It ceased with a breath
The rise and falling of our
*******
Reach for me
I'm reaching back

Though I'm spiritless
I cling to hope
A thought of you
In an eternal loop

The Windows don't hide
Your empty interior
The blade cuts deep
But you are bloodless
Why are you coagulated
The blood is thick
In your veins
The vain attempts
Of gratitude
Do you know
Good
The filth of your debasing
Is your only
Victory
Taking nothing in stride
You will cry
You will never cease to
Exist in your
Not so well
Crafted world

Pretty faces
Lie
Petty little
Lions
What to do
The motion-less
Few
What more is there to
Misconstrue
But the grievous
Muted tranquility
Will drown in six in
Dunes
Breathe In coarse
Granules
Of bitter truth
Feed your over
Hydrated
Self hate
Do not spew your
Dry laughs
In my direction
With the ledge so
Close
I want to trip you
To keep
Your morbid
Thoughts
To your grave
End

The dreamy blues of our future were dead. Dead to me. Dead to you. No more future, for me or you. How can we move on, you find it easier. Though I still remember your laugh. The high pitched cackle, of your bichiness. The rude way you thought of me. When you found me unlovable I noticed. But I never fore saw this bitter end. The frigidness of your affable idealism. High remarks for apathetic ways toward me. My empty empathy killed your feelings. Throw away the words we never spoke. Your wasting of emotions. You made me gracious for human interaction, but it was always misplaced. Misplaced with thoughts of misguided Inattention from familial interaction. I always trusted to easily, when it came to you.