If i had one wish it would definitely be this
it would be to have everything dissolve
to not have to wonder about whats going to come next
I wish that someone would just heal them
can't you hear them all screaming "I'm suffocating" "trapped in these walls" "someone LET ME OUT"
But the sad ironic truth is that the harder you try to help them
the more trapped within these walls they become
it's because the one building the walls is themselves
I don't understand them at all, why are they asking to be helped if they are just going to hurt themselves more???
How can I help them if the one that's hurting them is their own voices
it's so unfair, I SWORE to protect them, but the harder I try the more they hurt
PLEASE SOMEONE JUST HELP THEM, I CAN'T STAND TO HEAR THEIR SCREAMS
Huh that's odd...when did the one screaming become me...

The sweet words echo over and over again in my head
"I love you" "I love you" "I love you" How sweet it is.
It's so nice until I wake up and realize i'm just in my bed.
I wish that feeling could last forever , because waking up feels like a major diss.

However, today is the day that i'm going to stop being lazy and try,
I don't want those words to forever evade me until the day that I die.
I don't want to be surrounded by my repetitive unsuccessful attempts,
instead I want to find somewhere where I can live and be kempt.

So I slip on my shoes and out through the door I go.
I'm ready to find that special someone that will sing me that sweet chorus:
"I love you" "I love you" "Oh how much I TRULY love you" And so,
Here I am, waiting by this dam, searching for my one true madam.

Time passes by, but this time I will try, my eyes will stay dry.
Because this time, I'm not ready to bleed grime, swallowed up like a lime.
This is when I make my stand, this is now my land, and I need a hand.
And finally among the horizon , there I see a beautiful amazon, standing there brazen.

And then out of nowhere it hits me like a ton of bricks.
After a sudden flash and my eyes have had enough time to adjust,
I realize that i'm dreaming in the day and that it's a trick,
and it's then that I decide that it would just be best to turn to rust.

OW it hurts so bad,
no one told me this is how it would feel,
the world makes me so mad,
I don't want them to heal.

No way I want them to suffer,
the same kind of pain they put on to me.
And it needs to be rougher,
something that they won't be able to see.

I know that it's wrong though,
to have these kinds of thoughts,
But the world is now my foe,
And now I have fought.

I can't say that I won,
But I know that I left a mark,
Because when I look up at the sun,
It's just a little more dark.

It feels so lonely nowadays,
Every time someone calls my name,
It's because of the raze,
That ruined all playing the game.

While not all of them died,
they were all severely marred,
and they all have cried,
But not I, For I wanted this.

While I never asked for this game,
or the scars it has left me,
I'm glad I got to participate,
Because i'm a monster.

I know that now.
I'm not like any of them.
Deeeeeeep inside of me,
there's nothing but stark, dark, kerosene

So maybe that's why it hurts so bad?
It must be.
It's because in all reality,
i'm nothing more than a battery.

Each and every day that passes by,    
I can't help but hear more cries.
As tears drop down their face they drown,
swallowed by the dark black crown.    
    
Thrown into this awful game, where all I know is hate and blame,
I won't let it deceive, the light recieved
As the time ticks by, and the blood turns dry,
I can still see, the love inside thee.

I know that this puzzle is too hard
But yet I can't give up, for they've been scarred
And I want to save them I swear I do
But something deep inside has turned to goo

It says deep in my blackened heart
that I couldn't tell was drifting apart:
"Hey, you know I might not dislike this,
this, endless maze that is so merciless"  

It wants revenge for those who've hurt it
It wants to get rid of all things bound to it
It knows no bounds only pain and suffering
It only truly knows the word suffering

And it turns your soul from A golden hue
To nothing more than an endless blue
Deep within this thing's inside me
Turning the bright light into negativity

In it's wake it's taken many lives
And I know it enjoys their cries
It makes me crazy to know it lives inside
But no longer will I let it hide

So to this second face I'm forced to wear
I challenge you to take my dare
"Just as you've put fear in the hearts of many
Watch as I bring light to more than plenty"

So in the end, I ask you this:
Who was the cat,
and who the mouse?
Was it the despair that sought to destroy,
or the hope that wished to protect?

I remember a time in my life not long ago
When it seemed like everything was so perfect
I couldn’t tell that the intense bright glow
Was so false…How could I have thought it could protect?

The world that I had known from the time I was born
Was nothing more than an illusion cast upon my eyes
I didn’t know that the world I thought I knew was so torn
Or that everything I had been told all my life was lies

I remember a time in my life not long ago
When I was so happy to be alive
But then it happened in an instant
And everything I thought I knew was turned upside down

The normal order of things was gone
My mother, my father, my sister and me
We were no longer the way we used to be
And If I could I would do anything to have those days back
To put it all back together again that would be
That would be
That would….

But that isn’t how the world works

It changes so quickly beneath your feet and everything you thought you knew
It        changes       inaninstant
Too fast for you to even comprehend







And Now I’m left here all alone
It’s just    me       myself    and      I
Far away from the world I once knew
Lost amongst the mornings harsh dew

I wish they all just knew the truth
That I try and I cry and I scream
And it feels like I’m bleeding iNTERNALLy
Through all these years and all these tears

I’ve finally figured out how to be happy again
And even though these thoughts still try to haunt me
And I’m scared of the future and what comes next
I know that even when I feel alone
No-One-Is-Ever-Truly-Lonely