Have you ever messaged yourself thinking you are happy with how others treat you but you aren't happy with how you treat yourself?
Do you fear being alone or being left out? As human beings it is natural to feel that way.
Have you asked yourself, are you okay? Am I lonely? Do I seek attention?
Why do I correct others but not myself? What is loneliness? Why does god have no power when it comes to a humans mind? We are born to die. But are also born to live.
God is unable to completely control us humans. I have hoped that God will change someone's mind. But, God is only able to show us the way, not  go through it with us.
What you hoped for was a sign of loneliness. A sign that you must not rely on God and rely on yourself. And the only way to live life the right way is to get through the loneliness and live the way you showed yourself.

I am No...

Unlike you, I don't show my pain. I don't say it loud and clear and I am no guessing game.
I am not player 2 whom you think you can trick. I am not the piece of the puzzle or what makes a clock tick. I am no tick-tack-toe. I can not be trapped because I know your games.
They are not smart but they aren't stupid. The truly stupid thing was that you thought that you will win, but there wasn't something to win.
I am not a toy that you can pull to talk,when you feel like it. I am not your friend but a mirror of what you would become if you weren't going down this path. To you I am not your friend, but to me you were the only one who will understand.
I guess I was wrong. I am me. And you are you and I can't change how you act. But I can change how I act.

Because I am not what you want or need or think.

I am me
And that's it.