I wish you could see
how happy I am without you,
and see how much better I can do;
how much better I did.

If only you could see
and let it eat you alive from the inside,
hurt you so much that you can't even hide,
hurting far more than I did.

Let it eat at your heart
like acid raining only there.
Make you scream in agonizing pain,
Get the craziest of thoughts and go insane!

Regrets piling up over more regrets,
you reminisce on memories of the past,
ponder on ideas of what could have been us.
But our denouement resulted from having no trust.
None.

Where are you?
I am here, rock bottom,
and it isn't a place
but a state of mind.
It's another dimension
where you venture out
for something you can't find.
In another world,
I am there yet I am not.
I am sane yet I am not.
I am alive yet I feel nothing.
Where am I?
Find me if you can.

It suddenly prevails.
The walls cave in,
Hearts breaking,
Hands shaking,
History in the making,
But it'll never be the same.

It dawns on me now.
It's finally finished.
Everything's diminished
And you ask how?
To which I have no answer
Not a word, not one.
The war is done
And I won.

And it dawns on me now.
I have conquered.
Emotions fall and I rise.
I rise to your demise.
If not now, when will I realize?
Royalty in my world, I stand alone.
Some call it hatred, some a heart of stone.