I’ll be nothing more than a fleeting memory that invades your mind in the dead of night- a passive thought you reminisce back on years from now.
Maybe with sorrow
Hopefully with a smile
Don’t worry, I’ll still be here- existing forever within the memories and experiences we once shared.
All of which I’m eternally grateful for.
Grateful to you and the rest of the world for letting me experience.
Some moments of pure bliss filled with laughter that echoed throughout the night as time flew from our grasps.
Others of darkness that seemed to go on endlessly, turning mere seconds into an eternity.
It was in those moments that I found life.
A constant reminder that I still existed.
But it’s becoming too much for me now.
Those nights full of despair became days, then months, and slowly years. The same despair that served as a reminder that I was alive now taunts me with life.
It sounds like I’m being ungrateful.
Just a whiny little ***** complaining about something so minute compared to all the other problems of the world.
I guess I am.
How can my sadness stack up against the harsh realities of life elsewhere- where people are being slaughtered endlessly, dying of disease and famine.
No homes.
No family.
I have no right to complain

I could never imagine this emptiness
I could never imagine you leaving
Yet, you left again
I’m stuck here grieving
Coughing, heaving, hurting, wheezing
The pain cuts so deep, I’m stuck believing
That my heart needs to stop beating
To appease your convenience
But, every day feels the same
The pain doesn’t change
The memories remain but the heart breaks
A little more each day, your words were the bullets that pierced my soul
The brain holds the memories but it takes
So much to keep the tears back so they don’t flow
Now, I miss that smile, I miss your laugh
I’m stuck wishing for time I’ll never have
Wanting a future but I’m stuck living in the past
And it’s crazy, I’ll close my eyes and picture the stars
But I see you shine, imagine you in my arms
You’re on my mind, you’re in my heart
All the time, in these lines, in these rhymes, even when we’re apart
I’m sorry for all the pain I caused
I was looking for something, anything, but found nothing cause I was lost
But I love you, I swear I do
Do you love me too?