Here I am.
Standing on the edges of death.
I can't feel anything no more
The hurt and pain is just immense
I held on for too long.
I can't do it anymore.
I just can't.
Day by day
Wave by wave of pain hits me
Just one slight push.
And I guess everything will be over
But.
You.
You are what I live for.
You are the one that's still keeping me alive.  
I just hope that you don't go away.
Cause one slight push can take all of me away.

Will you let me know?
Breathing, sleeping, eating, and all out functioning
It's hard
Without your support I'd need your permission....right?
I'm doing everything I can
I don't want to need you because who would sign themselves up for a codependency that isn't even mutual
I suppose I would
Oh wait, can I cry about it or do I get a lash of angry emotion beyond comprehension for that as well
Do I even have the go ahead to verbally affirm you and my reasons to stay?
Can I please breathe? Please?