it’s been cloudy for so long
the rain now brings me comfort
hands reach out for shore
though the water holds me under
lungs still
heart beats through the chest
will there be a day
when i can finally rest

“run on sentence!”
keep going until you can no longer
then take a few more steps
worry not about the way you read
or if the spelling’s right
the world must know the words you weave
“run on, run on, run on”

Dull pencil scratches notebook page
Regret the air that fills my lungs
Not always though
Not before
Not forever

i am my fathers son
though he wasn’t there to raise me
my sins still echo his
my smile fades just as his did once
i am my fathers son

do i want to die
or **** who i have been
race against myself
time to sink or swim

ants in the room
roaches in the car
bugs crawl on skin
brain hears alarms

And it all is too much
As much as I want me to stay
As much as I want to
As much as I want to