Your eyes,
Are gentle and kind,
But give off a kind of strength, the strength of a warrior,
That has pushed you thus far.
Your soul,
Is as pure as they come,
For one cannot find one as innocent,
Nurturing, and pleasant as yours.
Your skin,
Soft to the touch,
Like a cloud, or sifting through water.
Your kiss,
Makes me feel as though I'm in another galaxy, far away from this plain of existence,
Blocking out all other things in this world, but just you and me.
Your smile,
Feels as though rays of sunshine have lightened a dark room,
A room that I wasn't aware that needed some light.
Your hugs,
Send a warm tingle throughout my body,
And fill me with so much love.
You are home.

I didn't know you weren't happy here
With that bright smile who could've guessed?
Days would pass
And your soul would grow weaker
If only...
I knew your everyday was a struggle
You hid it well
Something I have grown to be very good at.
But what about me?
What about mom?
What about all the ones who worked so hard to make you happy?
You thought you were helping by taking your life
But you made it worse for the world...
Worse for me when I didn't think I could feel any worse.
You made it possible.
I left to be with people who I know hated me,
Thinking it would make me worthless to the ones who love me
I did drugs to find some way to have comfort in your death,
But found none.
Each time I did them I knew I was a little closer to you,
But for some reason I just can't die.
I always return feeling a little less fixable.
I want my dreams to come true,
But why dream if I never intend to follow them?
I know it's gonna take some time for me to want to live and enjoy life,
And although you had the short and easy road,
Mines going to be a long journey home.

You may be far in the real world
But in my heart your not
You really died too soon
And it broke my heart in half
15 is too young
To take your own life
And now I can never
Help you try to make things right
You had a very beautiful soul
As well as every aspect of you was
And every one else don't try to tell me
You really knew who my sister was
She may have thought the fight was over
When really it was just beginning.
I miss you more than words can say
And my life has been difficult
Sometimes i want to meet the same fate
So we can meet again,
But not wait so long.
Between everyone in my life
You were a pure soul
I love you forever Alysa
And I will never let go

I left behind a trail
a Trail of Tears
wondering if anybody really knew I was here
a sad alone path I've walked almost all my life
again and again I thought I'd never see the light
but waiting for love
is it turn that may never come and just once in my life
I want to feel like I've won
the sadness that you feel
is like taking your heart
Thats starting to peel
you feel like you're never enough
for those around you
when all you want is someone to hug you
just tell me I'm enough one time in my life
and I will be good and fight for my life

Loneliness
it eats you alive
even when you feel you truly have someone you don't
And when you feel like you can trust you can't
Why must this world have such a dark turn
When all you want is someone by your side
A friend,
Lover,
Or just longing to love yourself.
So much crime but yet others feel safe
I wish I could.
No feeling of mine is worthy enough to tell others
I have tried,
But at this point I want to stop
Why can't this world show more love?