It happened again
I let her down, I just realised completely
That she prefers him over me
I can see it In my own eyes, my best friend
Slowly distancing away from me.

It must be my fault that she left
After I talked to her
At this rate I don’t know what to do
Have no clue since I told the truth
And did nothing wrong.

Man it hurts, your heart just tears apart. Slowly.
You feel like a knife stabbed in your heart
There’s like this sharp pain you know?
And the knife just goes deeper and deeper
As the pain gets sharper and sharper
Until it pops out the other side and you just break down
You burst into tears
You let all your emotion show as the barricade collapses
Because you’ve been boiling it all

Yet you can’t tell anyone
You don’t know who to talk to
Who to trust
Because each time you open your mouth
No words come out, there’s a knot in your stomach
Your mind just goes blank
So you stay silent.

Then you feel as though your heart just tears
Like a peice of paper
When ripped
Or you know when you soak it in water
It looks as though it disappears
There’s nothing left behind of it
But you know it’s there
You can still feel the pain

It just cracks
Like fragile glass when you put it down to ******* the table
Or when you step too ******* a peice of ice in a frozen solid lake
Each time you put weight on your foot
The ice breaks
Slowly
Creepily
Eery
Until you suddenly fall through and start drowning in the darkness
All alone

That’s how I feel
I feel like the knife is being pushed harder and harder
Like someone is shoving it there in the first place
And each shove results a crack in my heart
Just like thin ice
Until it smashes and I feel like I’m all alone
In the void
In the emptiness
Reaching my hand out to complete and utter nothing
Just and empty darkness void
A blanket that wraps around me
Suffocating me
And I want to believe
I want to believe that there is a person I can talk to
I want to talk to my best friend and cheer her up

But each time I do…?
I get to repeat the glass smashing over and over
Gets so familiar doesn’t it
Watching that tape recorder
On loop
In front of you
Gets so familiar until you don’t feel anything
There’s just a hole where your heart is supposed to be
And you just wonder after everything you’ve done for her
Why am I still here?…

Happiness just comes and goes,
And nobody never really knows,
If it’s real or not…
When you see a person smiling, laughing you think they are happy, that they are ok,
But you don’t actually know what they are going through,
What is on their mind.
You have no clue.
You have no clue, no clue if they are truly happy
Or they are just covering up, hiding what they really
Feel like.

Another day of crying,
Another day of dying,
Another day of feeling depressed,
Another day of feeling stressed.
My life is a mess,
And nobody cares.

Another day of fears,
Another day of tears,
Another day of betrayal,
Another day to fail.
Wow I love my life,
No wonder my friend tried to end hers with a knife.

Another night of no sleep,
Counting sheep,
Still not working,
Monsters in my heard lurking.

Another night of praying,
Another night hating,
On myself for being lazy,
Thinking I’m crazy.

Another day of fake smiling,
Fake laughing,
Surrounded with fake  people,
Filled with evil.  



Another person feeling their not good enough,
Another person ready to give up.
Wow you’re still reading?...

I am trying to spread awareness,
But people are careless, selfish
Don’t care what others feel
About what we have to deal
With.

Will you listen?
Will you read what I have written?
Or will you try and fit in,
Try to be like everyone else,
So you feel like you belong,
That you are doing the right and not the wrong?

Children, women and men, all get hurt.
Go through pain, again and again.
Hide it, cover it.
Hinting that they need help, praying, fake laughing and fake smiling.
And yet.. humanity doesn’t know what’s happening.
If this doesn’t make sense…
Open your eyes people

See the world behind the curtains and save another life.
Stand up for your friends, for your family, FOR HUMANITY

Do something, if you see someone lonely, go to them.
Hang out with them.
You will make them happier if you even just smiled or said hello.

You have the power to make people’s dreams come true.
Yes you, every single and each one of you.
Save a life and you will feel truly alive.
JUST
TRUST
ME
I wonder will people actually listen to what I had to say?
Or will they just laugh and walk away?
You have a choice… please make the right one.
You have a voice, so don’t run.
You never know when something can happen
Instantly, right this second.

Insomnia,
Such a stressful word,
A word that many have heard,
And many have not.

A disorder that gives you no sleep at all,
Spending the night staring at your bedroom wall.
You keep taking pills,
Hoping to get some sleep,
You feel everything going downhill,
But you still try to count sheep.

The next day, your still tired,
But you have done everything you could.
Some don’t tell anyone,
Cuz they don’t want to ‘ruin their reputation’.
They keep it a secret,
Try every possible treatment.

Others are seeking for help,
Following the doctor’s instructions step by step.
Resolving,
Their problems.

A few,
Do nothing at all.
Think, ‘It will go away soon’

Every day, and every night,
People’s futures shine so bright.
Lack of sleep, lack or rest,
Causing each other to stress.
If you have any problems,
Tell multiple people, tell humanity,
And you'll become very lucky.
Thank you for reading, I am done.

Now that’s a word I always see.  
Ocd stands for obsessive compulsive disorder,
It gives you thoughts,
That repeat again and again,
Like a tape recorder.
They enter your brain,
And stay there,
Affecting your life,

The images you see are unwanted,
Haunted,
Horrid.
But you can’t stop it.

People glare at you,
Some think it’s funny,
Laugh in your face,
You feel like a disgrace.

There are different types of obsessions,
But you could control them by attending therapy sessions,
There is nothing to be ashamed of,
There are a lot of people who will still give you love.

I know you feel so embarrassed,
So I am spreading awareness,
To help you and many others,
Will people spread this message I wonder,
You could always call this number:

0845 390 6232

Depression, such a simple word,
Yet one of the most common mental illnesses.
Each day you go to school,
You feel like all the people there are cruel.
Calling you names and beating up,
Making you feel like you're never good enough.
Throwing paper aeroplanes at you,
So you have no clue,
On what to do,
To make all this stop,

After school, you come back home.
When your parent asks how’s your day?
You pretend that you're absolutely ok
You go to your room,
And go back to your miserable gloom.
You spend the rest of the evening crying,
Your face stuffed into your pillow.
Your dying,
Slowly and painfully
Inside,

Every day all you do is stress,
You think your life is a complete mess.
Every day, it just gets worse,
It feels like a curse.
At night you look up at the moon,
And pray that this all ends soon.
You pray that is all is a dream,
All you want to do is scream.

The next morning when you wake up,
You realised that this is not a nightmare,
And you think to yourself that life isn’t fair.
But you don’t tell anyone,
Because you think that nobody cares.
So you just give in, they won.