I thought I found the perfect guy,
one that knew how to treat me right.
But I forgot to hold on,
and now he's gone.

I should have pushed harder for it to work,
but I didn't and now I'm hurt.
I can't remove his picture from my mind
I think about him all the time.

He meant everything to me,
and now we can't be
I ruined it all,
I say as I slowly fall.

I miss the way it was with him,
and now the lights starting to dim.
Everything inside is dead.
I can't get him out of my head.

I need him to survive.
He makes me feel so alive.
He has my everything,
and without him it's just not the same.

When he told me good-bye,
all I could think of is why.
I hate having to act like it's alright,
especially when all I do is cry at night.

I hate dwelling on my past,
and sitting here wondering why it didn't last.
I wish I could be with him right now,
I should get over him but I can't learn how.

I think about how it used to be and I smile.
I hoped he planed on staying a while,
but he left me alone and helpless,
and he knows it's him I will miss.

At first we loved, but not again.
We met at the mall,
and we talked ever since.
We stood starring at each other,
I wondered the time,
We'd stand together.
Holding hands as we walk down the street,
I wondered when our lips
Would meet.
My heart is broken,
you seem to ignore, The pain I
have, when you left me sore.
Our love was strong
In which now your
heart is blind to see, now I feel
that your love has forgotten
completely about me.
Well all in all I'm heartbroken
Without you by my side,
I wish we could love each other
like we did that one time.

I'm tired of being told to grow up,
When they know that I'm able
I'm sick of being called 'Punk',
Because that is being labelled

I don't know what to become,
I can't work hard at school
When I make a mistake or trip up,
Kids simply yell at me "FOOL!"

I try to find an answer,
Each and every other day
I really am in the need of help,
And I put myself in shame

It's frustrating not knowing ME,
For myself I'm a little shy
I need to figure this one out,
But tell me, who am I?

If I should die before the rest of you,
Break not a flower nor inscribe a stone.
Nor, when I'm gone, speak in a Sunday voice,
But be the usual selves that I have known.
Weep if you must,
Parting is hell.
But life goes on,
So........ sing as well.

I have a pain so deep you'll never see
I locked it away and hid the key.
If I ever really could share it
You wouldn't look at me the same I swear it.
I've seen things I shouldn't have to see
But the only one who ever knew was me.
I faked a smile everyday
For I couldn't stand for you to see me this way
I buried my emotions deep inside my soul
It's this hate I have that keeps me whole
If I ever truly showed you what's inside
I'd run away fast and quickly hide
No matter where I go these feelings stay inside
All I want to do is close my eyes
It's like an eternal torture that never dies
These voices that fill my head
Telling me I'm way better off dead
This pain of living hurts my heart
Should I have ended it from the start?
It's like when I get home I take off a mask
Faking happiness is nearly an impossible task
But some how I manage to get by
Going through everyday about to cry
One day maybe it'll be okay
But of course that day is not today.
How much blood can I shed
Before I'm lying on the floor dead?
Will this pain ever go away?
Maybe tomorrow but not today.

When you wake up in the morning or stay up on nights end
know that your sister is here till the very end
When you gather your equipment and grasp your gun
Know that you're loved, brother, uncle, son

When you think of the memories we all shared before
Think of the future and know that there be more
When you look at pictures and see your wife
I want you to smile brother because she is your life.

When your hurting inside cause you think you've done wrong
Lift your head up and remember you're strong
When you fire your weapon and see injuries dead
Please hold on tight don't let it go to your head

When you leave from there and you're packed for home
I want you to think back and know you weren't alone
When you see us and we hold you tight
I will smile and tell you that you held up a fight.
Be strong Scott I know you can do this
Because when this is over your life will be full of bliss

Roses are red the grass is green
I want you in bed
if you know what I mean