The knife slides in
Oh what a pain

The knife is turning
Oh please remain

The knife is *****
Oh what a relief

The knife is me
Oh I grind my teeth

The knife is a gift
Oh there is no other way

The knife is swift
I want to pass away

My knife
Once a gift
Now my tool
My blade
Once for protection
Now for relief
My razor
Once pristine
Now rugged
My knife
Once shiny
Now stained red on the edge

I'm only alive
Because others are trying
To keep it that way
Was it up to me
I'd already be dead

My existence is worthless
I provide nothing of value
I only consume
I am the perpetrator
Of this parasitic society
I am the victim
Of the consumerist manipulation
I create nothing of value
I only consume
My death will not be marked
With art left behind
Or with achievements of mine
Nothing will change
Once I will die

It could have been so wonderful
To me, it was like a dream
I walked into this with no fear
Oh I was such a fool

We could have been so happy
I wish I never asked what we are
It was easier to not be looking far
But you wanted to set me free

I could have been alive
I am not free, I have one foot out the door
I can't accept my life anymore
Can't fool myself, you were heartbreak from the moment you entered my sight

Nothing on my wrist
No wristbands that you made
But my love for you is still the same
Didn't slice my wrists then
Despite of how much I want them
No wristband from my dad
Even though how much I wish we had

I wish I had done it
When emotions were on the high
When I had more reasons why

I wish I could commit
But sadly I backed down
Hard to go back now

I wish I wasn't scared
But I let the timer run out
When I had too much doubt

I wish I had killed myself
But now I'm too stable to do it
Yet I don't think I want to live