Every little detail tormented her mind as she gazed upon the objects infront of her. She sighed softly and looked backup. How she wished her mind was like the white wash of the wood above her. Her eyes crawled back to her screen as her fingers scrolled down each and every name.

The same thing was in her mind. As she went through those files . Only one thing was true. She was all that she could have..but now what she has is nothing. Her eyes gently closes as her eyelashes touched her cheek.
But nevertheless she was looking at the whitewashed ceiling above

If hope was what it was
I blame myself
Not the one from the start
Just like illusions on a dessert
Mirage

You saved her
Her soul was broken and she was breaking
Breaking on her own
But you took it away

Mirage
I watch my dreams of us
I wash away the heat
The heat that blinded me with these illusions
But i clasp my hands gently
And prayed for the best
Best for the both

As the prayer continues
The cuts through my beating *****
Becomes deeper

Thoughts
Simple but not
Each time my mind forms that image
The fluidity of the imagination
It became you
As each time you came to be
A thorn grows
It may be long,short, fine or thick
But its still a thorn
The more the feeling blossom
The more the thorns in my heart flourish
The line was drawn
But the forbidden tempation
Of loving
Never went away
My dear sheep all i could do now
Is watch as you find the other you
Each time I turn
To look at another you
Its not the same
If the pace was slower
Much much slower

Amuse me
As you whisper ,shout,hurl and talk
Bout issues
Related to your purpose?
What is your purpose?

Promises
Have you forgotten?
You told them you would improve
Be their ears
Be their voice
Give them what belongs to them

But after the turmoil
Of getting small papers to be marked
With a significant cross
That two intersecting lines which made a difference
For them and for you
Or perhaps only for you

After reaping your benefits
All you did was talk
But just like a product that did not passed the QC in a factory
Sad
So sad

What bout those people
Those whom have believe in your pinky swears
They waited
They hope
They prayed
All you did was sowed the benefits

Across the room I watched you
Lack of vision
Pathetic
Is it possible for me to work with such minds
Childish

I left the room never
Who said I was gonna return?

Another one left
Moving on to another place
Dimension perhaps
Saying goodbye to everything
That has been cruel yet beautiful at the same time

Thank you
Was all that left her lips
She recalled of the days
Days where he would seek her

She recalled him being a little fly
Pesky was all that was in her mind
Buzzing bout her ear
That made her mobile shook and flashed non stop

Soon
She realised she was not that lonely anymore
That was what she thought
And soon it was not only words
it was contents
Contents that were deep
That was what she thought
Love
That was what she thought

Putting on her armor
She charged and spilled the contents
Of what she thought was love
But he
To him now she was
Nothing but
A fly

How dare you
Trample over my garden
Suppressing the lovely young buds from reaching the solar rays
You! Boisterous and inconsiderate
No different than a creature from the stone age
I take that back even they are smarter because they invented the wheel