Hurts to see him smile as he seems to be happy without me
I sit and wait for him to come back to me but there's nothing I can do right now
I have that gut feeling that he's hurting and longing for me
The feelings I get from him and the mixed signs
Yet all he can say is
"I'm sorry, but I don't feel that way."
But when his actions speak otherwise I started to see his love for her is no longer deep.
He knows I know he's trying to get my attention
yet I feel the need to push him away to save him
Maybe he's hurting and hiding his pain as much as I am
Is she the reason this happened?
Why hasn't she satisfied him when all he seeks is true love?
He's not who he use to be because of me
Sobbing and heartbroken you hear them say
"He's not a man. He's a waste of space!"
But they're wrong I say even if I was his prey
I still found myself loving you to this day
But that doesn't mean a thing to them
We all know the truth will come to the surface and
If only he understood my love
We wouldn't be here, pretending to follow the rest of the sheep
He's not alright I see it in his eyes but yet he tells her "Don't worry. I'm fine."
I know he's lying and running from the tabooed beliefs that were instilled in him
To keep him from loving me
Since the last time, he asked if I was alright.
All I could say was "Yes, I'm fine"
I'm not, not right now, at least
I still wipe tears from my eyes
Wishing that you had stopped them from denying what you felt for me
You should have pushed her away as she was placed to keep you in control
And now I hope you think to yourself when you hear my name
"By God if only...
If only you were mine..."