If I would have known, I would have never left your side.
I would have answered every call.
I would have been there, every time you cried.
If I would have known, I would have held you in my arms.
I would have fought away all your demons.
I would have kept you safe from harm.
If I would have known, I would have made you laugh.
I would have told you silly stories.
I would have led you down a different path.
But I did not know, so I couldn't heal your internal blister.
I didn't know, so I couldn't have talked you home.
I didn't know, I was a terrible big sister.
If I would have known, I would have kept every single tear.
I would have held you so, so close.
I would still have you right here.
If you would have told me, dear brother,
What you were going to do that night,
I would have held you down and made you resist the urge to fight.
But I didn't know, I had no clue.
And know you're dead and I'm stuck here.
On this earth, with no you.
Kids, I know life gets hard.
It may seem impossible, every single day.
But please, speak up, because people do care.
And you don't want to leave them in that way.