No one ever asks
Are YOU ok
And when they do
I put on a mask
I hide my true feelings
To make them happy
To make it go away
They don’t see through it

They complain about their problems
They think they have it bad
But they don’t know true pain
They don’t understand
They don’t know how good they have it
They don’t know the pain they cause

They don’t know true sadness
They don’t know true pain

I put on a mask
I hide true self
I hide my flaws
I try to be perfect
I try to be average
I try to be like everyone else

I have no talents
I can’t do anything
I have no talents

I hear everyone getting compliments
I hear how everyone has it perfect
I act like I have it perfect
But they don’t see the mask I’m wearing

I don’t complain about how bad I have it
I just hide
I hide my pain
I hide my true self
I hide my flaws

I don’t have fun
I don’t have fun doing what I love
I can’t do what I love
I’m bad at everything

I wait for another like me
While I watch others with someone like them

I wait for me person to come
I wait for my “true love”
While I watch everyone else
With their love

I put on a mask
Acting like I’m happy
Acting like everyone else
Acting like I don’t hear them talking about me
Acting like their comment don’t hurt
Acting happy

While everyone else has it perfect
True happiness
What does that mean
Will I ever have it
Or will I just always wear a mask

I wear it to hide myself
To make everyone happy
Because they won’t worry about me
But why would they
  


•happiness•



<sadness>



They just dont understand my pain.

I wish I was cool
I wish I was popular
I wish I was missed

I wish people wanted me
I wish people cared for me
I wish people liked me

I wish I was loved
I wish I was wanted
I wish I was liked

I wish people thought about me
I wish people knew about me
I wish people talked to me

I wish people knew I existed

i sit there and imagine
if anyone would notice
if I was gone

and i imagine
the world without me

i try to think of a reason
to stay
a purpose for me

i sit there and imagine
if anyone would even care
if i was gone

i try to think of a reason
for me to stay alive
if i will ever make an impact

i sit there and imagine
if anyone would help
if i needed it

i try to think of a reason
for life
but it seems I have writers block

i sit there and imagine
if anyone loves me
if anyone would ever

It seems I can’t think
of a reason to stay
next thing I know
The tile is stained red

i want you
and it kills me to know
you don’t want me  

i watch you as you smile
with your friends
wishing i could smile with you

i wish you wanted me
and it kills me to know
you don’t wish for me

i watch you being you
wishing i could be
with you

i want to be with you
and it kills me to know
you don’t want me

you stole my heart
if only I could steal yours
then maybe just maybe
you would be mine

if only...

I wish I could see you
once again
I wish I could hear your voice
once again
I wish I could play with you
once again
I wish I could joke with you
once again

I still remember your laugh
I still remember your cheer
I still remember your music
I still remember your joy

I would give anything to go through the ups and downs
I would give anything to have another day with you
I would give anything to hear your voice again
I would give anything to see your smile again

I will forever remember you
You will forever be in my heart