I wonder what you’d think of me
I wonder if you think of me
I wonder if you remember  me
I wonder if you want to remember  me
I wonder if you’ve cried over me

I miss you
I want you
I need you
I love you

I wonder if you miss me
I wonder if you want me
I wonder if you need me
I wonder if you love me

I imagine you
I see pictures of you
I wish for you
I beg for you

I wonder if you imagine me
I wonder if you see pictures of me
I wonder if you wish for me
I wonder if you beg for me

I wish you were mine.

i step in the car and instantly something feels off
he tells me therapy is canceled
i calmly say ok
i think what happened
does he have cancer again, has someone died
we come home and she’s pacing
she hugs my with tears in her eyes
brother comes home
and that’s when she tells us
your sisters gone

Did she ever love me
Ever
I thought she did
We laughed together
I looked up to her
I loved her
But
Did she love me
Ever
I assumed she did
We played together
We had a connection
But
Did she ever love me
Ever
Even a bit
Even the smallest
I’ll never know

I* still remember color of your eyes,
and I do not think that you've remembered the color of mine.
I remember what your voice and heartbeat sounded like,
and I always dream of hearing them both one more time.
everyday, I hope you will call once more,
saying that you love me, the way I do.
I think its time I stop loving *you.

By my sister who is now six feet under