"Because I'm still in love with you on this harvest moon."
-Neil Young

"But the truth is, you were never there
you won't ever be.
Sometimes I think I'm not either, so what do I do when everyday
still seems to start and end with you?
And you won't ever know, you won't ever see
How much your ghost since then has been defining me."
-La Dispute: You and I in Unison

"Don't tell me that I'll be fine. I'm so sick of hoping you're right."
-Neck Deep: What Did You Expect?

"Get off my mind, give back my heart, and get the **** away from me."
-Front Porch Step: Drown

"You were the only saving grace I ever had."
-Slaves: Starving for FRIENDS

Your kiss was pure euphoria--
all I've ever wanted.

You were all I've ever needed.

Bliss, I found in the fullness of your lips.

Hope, I found in the creases of your bed sheets.

Love, I found in your touch.

Or so I thought.

But last night I was slapped in the face with the harsh realization that you'll never be mine.

It's tearing itself through my soul
and out of my chest--
It's rotting me from the inside out,
*and that's not a very big deal to you.

You claim that the reason you kissed me
was supposed to be "fun"--
for the both of us

And ****, it was fun

until I fell in love

and you say it's "just fun"
I say, it's just blood

seeping through the bandage.

I didn't want to wash your taste from my mouth

I didn't want to rinse your kisses off of my skin

I didn't want to relapse,

                       *but I gave in.

My emotions got the best of me.
of course you don't love me back
You just thought it would be "fun"

Cause it's so much fun to make someone fall in love with you
Only to rip it out of their chest

And leave them bleeding on the floor.

And I'm sick of others leaving me bleeding on the floor.

So I took it into my own hands.
I'm the one who made the ****
so deep it's seeping through the bandaid.

Are you having fun now?

I'm not. I'm racking my brain,
Asking myself why I'm not good enough for you-
Or anyone else.
I'm just a *******.
I'm just a ******* toy

You'll be curious about me,
Pick me up and play with me,
Until you find a flaw
Then you'll leave me in the back of your mind
You grew bored of me
You got what you wanted

so now I'm the one
Making myself bleed

So much for being "clean" for two months.
I threw that away.
Just like you threw me away.

I thought everything was better
I thought I was better

But you proved me to be
*so **** wrong...

I'd wonder if you truly want me
and then I'd remember,
you'd say you were afraid of commitment.

I'd wonder what made you kiss me
and then I remember,
all you want is ***.

I'd wonder why you'd look at me
with swirls of blue slow dancing in your eyes,
and that glimmer of hope ignited in my bones
and then I'd remember,
you always told me I was "hot".

I'd wonder why you grabbed my hand like that
and intertwined your fingers with mine
then I'd remember,
you did things like that on your own accord
and when I asked if you'd hold my hand,
you always refused.

I still wonder if you meant it
when you said you loved me
but then I remember when I asked you,
"Do you love me like I love you, or...?"
You responded with, "Like I want to ******* love"

I wish I never loved you.
I wish I still didn't.

I wish you would ******* love me back...

*But you won't.

You know which kind of boy is the worst?
The ones with pretty blue eyes
and a killer mouth, they tell you they like your hair
and say that your name is pretty
and make you out like you're something special,
but you really aren't  ****.  

Those kinda boys make my heart hurt. They wink at you
and tell you beautiful words
that weren't meant for you.

They just build you up so high, and  drop you like you meant nothing.

They put you on a pedestal until
You're up so high
That you don't ever come down.


*until he leaves you.