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May 2021 · 181
Lonely path
Siya Selani May 2021
A walk path down this lonely heart
Blinded by love from the start
They come and go like annual seasons
Than leave me broken for now reason

The next one will come in a flip of a page
I'd run into love like a bird out a cage
It will blossom until they've ate the seed
Than I'll realize it was all for greed

Again I'd be left alone in this lonely path
Grievously reincarnating my broken heart
I fall and fall than rise again
Cause falling in love is never in vain

I heal my heart and resume walking
Releasing by gones for some soul searching
For now the path is still lonely but I still have fate
That by the end of this journey I shall find my soul mate
Nov 2020 · 126
More than I ever could
Siya Selani Nov 2020
How we laughed, played and fooled around
Chasing each other, how I held you down
Made promises to me you never kept
One minute we fine than Im something you just neglect
I ask myself what can I do
Just to make you realize I still love you
Cant you see the hurt in my eyes
If only my tears can wash away your lies
But im prepared to walk away for good
I hope she will love you more than I ever could
Nov 2020 · 115
Luckiest girl in the world
Siya Selani Nov 2020
Already Im sitting here blushing
As Im holding this pen inking
About how Im the luckiest girl
Man, how you just came in and changed my world
My reason to smile
Must be hidden in those brown beautiful eyes
Your gentle touch
Has reached deep down my heart
Thoughts of you, got me spinning out of control
Nonetheless Im still the luckiest girl in the world
Nov 2020 · 91
Herstory
Siya Selani Nov 2020
Blood dripping on the floor
Knife in hand, she'll hurt no more
Pain and tears in her eyes
Stabbed and betrayed by his lies
Nobody loves you he said repeatedly

Dumb *****, you're worth nothing but misery
These words rang rang in her head
She finally decided she was better off dead
She sliced her wrists, "life is truly not fair"
She wrote in her blood whilst grasping for air
Nov 2020 · 58
Human Race
Siya Selani Nov 2020
To be black has been a sin
For centuries we suffered because of the color of our skin
When will it ever stop?
Our brothers and sisters being victimized by the cops
Have our lives become so worthless?
For us to be so brutally murdered
Im black and Im human too
I love, dream and have meaning too
Why should I be a white man's threat?
I watched him put his knee on my african brother's neck
How he begged for his life, until his last breath
I believe one day we will be one in many ways
And love each other as a united human race
Nov 2020 · 55
Dear Diary
Siya Selani Nov 2020
Dear Diary
I met someone sweet and kind
No matter how much I try, I cant keep this boy out of my mind
Thinking of him, makes me the happiest girl
How he just come into my life and completely changed my world
Sometimes I wonder if he feels the same way I do
When he sees me does he feel butterflies too
Ohhh my, my cheeks are turning pink
Im head over heels, my heart is starting to sink
I cant wait for the day we get to lock lips
Quit this flirting and share a passionate kiss
Thats when I'll call him my boo
Until than, dear diary stay true
Nov 2020 · 68
Best Song Ever
Siya Selani Nov 2020
You my joy, you my muse
My dancing feet in rhythm and blues
Our hearts beating as one
Our dearest part is yet to come

You the lyrics to my favorite song
I watch you hook in to sing along
Though it ends in three minutes
Every word describes how Im feeling

How your voice is music to my ears
How I miss you when you not there
I put on my stereo and play this song
Think of us as the piano plays on
In three minutes I'll feel much better
As I'll remember you by the Best Song Ever
Nov 2020 · 67
What Im Thankful For
Siya Selani Nov 2020
Some planned to change, some planned a new start
They lost that opportunity in a beat of a heart
We had goals, we had motives
But this year brought us pain and weak emotions
It taught me to appreciate what I still have
And let go of what I've lost
Materialistic things mean nothing
When l have the one's who show me love the most
What Im thankful for is nearest to me
And thats going to sleep and waking up beside my family
Nov 2020 · 60
Precious Seed
Siya Selani Nov 2020
All I have is just memories
Of how happy we once were
Before the pain and the misery
After you hurt me countless times without care

I held on to us and I held on too tight
I stood by through good times till our last fight
Now Im left to wonder if it was truly worth it
If I stopped pretending as if all was perfect

Now Im stuck fixing this heart I didn't break
All for what I called love for heaven's sake
Sadly a part of me is still with you
Though I still love you, Im glad we're through

So now I can begin to love myself
Before sharing this heart of mine with someone else
Im beautiful and strong-willed in deed
You tried to bury me, unknowing that I was a precious seed
Nov 2020 · 73
In a Lifetime
Siya Selani Nov 2020
A year ago we met each other
In only a few days you became my lover
I remember the first weekend we went out
Our first kiss in front of a big old crowd
A month went by just talking over the phone
Im afraid to lose you, Im scared to be alone
A year later we still kick it, wet and wild
How I wish to birth you, your first child
I hope a decade from now you'll still be in my life
With three children and I'll be your happy wife
In thirty years we'll tell our grandkids how we met
How we loved one another in a lifetime shared
Nov 2020 · 53
Imagining
Siya Selani Nov 2020
Sometimes I keep on imagining
How life would be if this was true
Running in between trees kissing
After a tireless game of peek-a-boo

If only you knew how my heart feels
Just the thought of us together gives me chills
Im so ******* in your charm
Yet I'll never release myself from gentle arms

So im just sitting in my desk writing this poem
Hoping you'll walk into our humble home
But that happens in the movies
Im just imagining what I wish us would be
Nov 2020 · 55
Images and Memories
Siya Selani Nov 2020
It feels like yesterday
Running in those corridors
With my ruby red lips
Skipping classes for Lord who knows?

Smiling in front of the cameras
Yet feeling so much guilt
I knew it was wrong
But I had to show off to buddies that I was street

Now that I've graduated I have to say I miss school
I had to straighten up because a sucker in real life ain't cool
All I have are images and memories
That my school life was not that much of a misery
Aug 2020 · 71
Crime for loving you
Siya Selani Aug 2020
The crime of loving you
Sick twisted pain I went through
All the support I gave
Torn and thrown away
Remember I was always there
Through thick and thin I showed care
For a minute I felt needed
Than boom I just lost it
My heart serves as a prison wall
For the crime of loving you through all
Siya Selani Aug 2020
Can't believe I would've jumped over a bridge to be by your side
Took dare devil risks together, the modern day bonnie and clyde
I tried to keep it cool, I did wonders to excite you
yet you failed to understand
you left me stranded without a plan
I could've chosen you over everything
But for you, it wasn't the same when it came to me
I kept on telling myself you are one of a kind
I guess I was ahead of myself, I was just deceiving my mind
I prayed for you more than I prayed for myself
Stabbed in the back by the person I gave my fragile heart
Now I have to watch you rejoice while I'm left torn apart
I saw you as a partner not a rival
Yet I still pray and wish you good with my hand on the bible
Im a scorned lover
Siya Selani Aug 2020
I was never pretty enough
I was never the one for life
Tried to straighten my hair
Bleached my skin so i could look fair
Took exotic images to send to you
Hoping you'd never leave because I was cool
I got high, got drunk and shot a tape
Lord I hope it wont leak for Christ's sake
**** I was a trip
He road me, I fell in too deep
I'm left with more insecurities than regret
I fear to love the man who will come next
I am but a scorned lover
Aug 2020 · 67
Why do I keep going back?
Siya Selani Aug 2020
Torn up once more
My heart shattered on the floor
Pain in my eyes
Caused by his selfish lies
Why do i keep going back?
I guess self love and esteem i lack
I wish he knew his betrayal left a permanent scar
He'll never know my worth and make it far
So I'll pack my bags and be gone
Never look back and start a new life to a place unknown
Theres nothing worse in the world than being in a relationship alone. You love someone but in return you get lies and betrayal
Aug 2020 · 62
Sweet taste of fine wine
Siya Selani Aug 2020
So its just another friday night
Having you in my arms, everything will be alright
Who cares about painting the city red
Knowing you can turn me wild and crazy once you get into my head
A toast to life and a sip of you
Blowing some smoke and dancing all night through
I cant seem to reach my bed so I'll sleep on the stairs
Screaming, 'I still prefer my sour grapes than sweet pears'
In the morning, I look at your empty self beside this weary body of mine
Reminiscing the sweet taste of fine wine
Only drinkers will know what is meant to be understood here
Aug 2020 · 65
Deep down inside
Siya Selani Aug 2020
The word love is difficult to define
It's what we feel from deep down inside
We chase it, though it makes us blind
Desire it, though been hurt numerous times
Still, once those tears dry, we love again
So truly like we've never felt pain
Love controls our emotions but our dear hearts will pay the cost
Of falling in love and poor judgment lost
We share laughter, good times, betrayal and lies
Love is, what we feel from deep down inside
How can one define love?
Aug 2020 · 75
I'm sory
Siya Selani Aug 2020
I'm sorry for your pain
I'm sorry I made you crying
I can't promise it won't happen again
Cause that would be a selfish lie
I'm sorry for letting you down
I'm sorry for not letting you be
You are a queen with no crown
You are the strong woman in me
Letting yourself down and still have the courage to pick yourself up and dust yourself off
Aug 2020 · 71
A blush with lust
Siya Selani Aug 2020
Swift stare into your eyes
Than turn my head away
I fancy you but im shy
To tell you to forever stay
My heart beats so fast
Whenever im spending time with you
A blush with lust
Bare in arms all night through
My feelings for you are known by myself and nature
Too shy to tell you so I'll just ink them on paper
When meeting the one your heart desires and you are just unable to resist the thought
Siya Selani Aug 2020
Picked myself up and tried again
To my surprise it wasnt in vein
In your arms i feel right at home
My life without you remains unknown
Love was a word I couldnt spell out
Yet now I feel it from deep down my heart

Your eyes are my reason to smile
Thoughts of us in my head run for a thousand miles
Babe in everything I've been through
I still have hope in me and you
Trying to fall in love again after a massive heartbreak can weigh heavy on one's soul

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