Some planned to change, some planned a new start
They lost that opportunity in a beat of a heart
We had goals, we had motives
But this year brought us pain and weak emotions
It taught me to appreciate what I still have
And let go of what I've lost
Materialistic things mean nothing
When l have the one's who show me love the most
What Im thankful for is nearest to me
And thats going to sleep and waking up beside my family

All I have is just memories
Of how happy we once were
Before the pain and the misery
After you hurt me countless times without care

I held on to us and I held on too tight
I stood by through good times till our last fight
Now Im left to wonder if it was truly worth it
If I stopped pretending as if all was perfect

Now Im stuck fixing this heart I didn't break
All for what I called love for heaven's sake
Sadly a part of me is still with you
Though I still love you, Im glad we're through

So now I can begin to love myself
Before sharing this heart of mine with someone else
Im beautiful and strong-willed in deed
You tried to bury me, unknowing that I was a precious seed

A year ago we met each other
In only a few days you became my lover
I remember the first weekend we went out
Our first kiss in front of a big old crowd
A month went by just talking over the phone
Im afraid to lose you, Im scared to be alone
A year later we still kick it, wet and wild
How I wish to birth you, your first child
I hope a decade from now you'll still be in my life
With three children and I'll be your happy wife
In thirty years we'll tell our grandkids how we met
How we loved one another in a lifetime shared

Sometimes I keep on imagining
How life would be if this was true
Running in between trees kissing
After a tireless game of peek-a-boo

If only you knew how my heart feels
Just the thought of us together gives me chills
Im so ******* in your charm
Yet I'll never release myself from gentle arms

So im just sitting in my desk writing this poem
Hoping you'll walk into our humble home
But that happens in the movies
Im just imagining what I wish us would be

It feels like yesterday
Running in those corridors
With my ruby red lips
Skipping classes for Lord who knows?

Smiling in front of the cameras
Yet feeling so much guilt
I knew it was wrong
But I had to show off to buddies that I was street

Now that I've graduated I have to say I miss school
I had to straighten up because a sucker in real life ain't cool
All I have are images and memories
That my school life was not that much of a misery

The crime of loving you
Sick twisted pain I went through
All the support I gave
Torn and thrown away
Remember I was always there
Through thick and thin I showed care
For a minute I felt needed
Than boom I just lost it
My heart serves as a prison wall
For the crime of loving you through all

Can't believe I would've jumped over a bridge to be by your side
Took dare devil risks together, the modern day bonnie and clyde
I tried to keep it cool, I did wonders to excite you
yet you failed to understand
you left me stranded without a plan
I could've chosen you over everything
But for you, it wasn't the same when it came to me
I kept on telling myself you are one of a kind
I guess I was ahead of myself, I was just deceiving my mind
I prayed for you more than I prayed for myself
Stabbed in the back by the person I gave my fragile heart
Now I have to watch you rejoice while I'm left torn apart
I saw you as a partner not a rival
Yet I still pray and wish you good with my hand on the bible