I know I'll think about you when you're gone.

When I'm gone...
because it's not just you who's leaving.

And when I do think about you,
it won't be like this.
You'll seem very far away...
like I read about you somewhere in a book,
or dreamt you up
in the pit of my soul.

I did not ask for you to love me,
But instead for the illusion
That with your body next to mine,
We’d vanish in the depth of time
Into the most beautiful of places.

I did not ask for you to love me,
But instead I asked for silence.
And with my head upon your chest
I closed my eyes to dream,
That somehow you did love me
In the most beautiful of ways.

I wish I could tell you that I love you
And not worry that you won’t understand
That I say it not simply because I want to,
But so that in the event of my death,
You might know that I've loved you my whole life,
And that the amount of love I have for you
Is ten million times more than I ever deserved to experience

We reach out to one another,
Grasping at all the wrong hands
What lonely creatures god has made
In a lonely, godless world

Oh wind, take me away from this place
Bring me sweetly to death
My one and only friend
And sing to me softly, gently,
So that I may sleep once again

This love is one I'll never lose,

One I can't control

This joy that I cannot refuse

Leaks sadness in my soul

Unravel me with your smile,
The limbs of my soul stretched out to touch you,
Your voice a soft caress on my cheek,
Like honey and all that is hopeful in the world

Laugh, my love, and send me whirling too,
As you always have and always will
Oh, what I would do, what I would give!
To hear you laugh just one more time

Soak into my bones like ink on paper
Stain me any way you wish

I wanna breathe you in like water vapor
And hold you in like smoke, like this

I cannot name an untarnished memory
Nor can I recite to you with an amiable fondness
All that you have introduced to me
Which I know can never be forgotten
Or ignored

Every time I’ve cried
For each childish, humdrum tear
You have sat upon my eyelids in wait
And braced yourself upon my lips
To catch them as they fall

My make-believe hero
My sunlight

As for leaving,
Love knows not of the word
But only of emptiness
For you can never truly leave someone
Who hasn’t let you go

What a sad thing it is

I am still here
And I’ve loved you every moment of it

A flash of light stifles my grief
Have you ever seen such brightness?
The individual strands of sorrow
Illuminated by a hidden thief
My darkness, your lightness

What sweet and careless madness
To know of joy and know it well
Tell me, are you happy here?
Or in perfection, plagued by sadness
Lonely where only your sanity dwells

Awoken by a whisper
Fresh eyes peering up at me
I am tired, so tired
But even I cannot resist
This sweet, little face
Just inches from mine
So happy to see me,
It brings me to tears

He sits in the corner of my mind
His face is plastered onto the blacks of my eyelids
Like a drive-in movie
A silent film, of course

I replay our short time together,
Which is more accurately described as my time with him
I stop to wonder,
Was I happy then, or do I only remember it that way?

I don’t have to think my thoughts to feel that he is in them
Each time I convince myself that I am completely alone
I close my eyes and he is with me
I close my eyes, and it’s as if he never left

Time and time again it seems
The heart was made to cry and scream
And though our weary eyes do gleam,
We sleep alone again

I can’t explain how it feels

I wake up every day
Wondering if I’ll ever be happy

And go to bed every night
Knowing that I’ve failed myself again