Inside I can see me when my eyes close. Although the darkness only provides little light just enough to see the shadows
Thick and numb is the feeling I feel when I mentally feel who I am.
A reflection in the mirror is a person I do not know I have never seen me when I was young and pretty.

My heart is not right for my body. It feels love compassion kindness and yearns to give help and comfort to anyone who wants.
But I have never met anyone who can do the same for me .
I feel I'm invisible and to deformed to be seen .
When will I know it's time to cry . I need to cleanse me.

You left leaving me wide open, you have broke my spirit, crushed my heart, cracked my soul , in a minute. Will I ever come back from such devastation? Will time heal my wounds ?Will I ever see you again? Will I ever love again ?Questions I cannot answer . I am a soul drifting aimlessly,with my nights  restless and my mornings worse .
I cannot eat
I cannot sleep
I cannot think
cuz you are not here with me.
    What have I done to you so cruel that you have left me wide open, with a crushed heart, a broken soul , and a cracked spirit . I have roamed into the unknown a deep hole I cannot recover from. Hopelessly positively absolutely broken by your absence .
I love you forever my love

A cold damp foggy October night.
As mist falls onto the ground and a slight breeze moves the fog sideways as the thick fog slams faces that are out and about roaming the streets of this small quiet town.
The sky is grey not one star in sight. The fog is so thick trees and roads can not be seen.
Growls and howled are heard in the distance . As we walk the road that's known for strange happenings.
Not one car has passes us in the past half hour .Feet and fingers are numb nose has a slight run and my eyes are wide open from fright of the creepy October night.
In the direction of the trees and thick brush a dollar is heard but it's faint as we walk towards it it becomes clearer sounds like a baby crying . I'm shaking as I walk towards it a shadow passes me and my heart stops it's beat lying in front of me is a mutilated baby pig with its mother hanging from a tree above I turn around and I'm hit hard as my body fell to the ground .

A breathe sighs quiet like a pedal falling off  a rose.
  
A stare that burns like the rays of the sun.
  
A voice which travels like an echo in a tunnel.
  
From a touch that is soft to the silence that runs deep like the depths of the see.
    
For love should be spread ever so widely from person to person coast to coast  is every bit needed ,just like the air we breathe.

Your born
You grow
Your taught
You learn
A choice
You choose
The wrong turn you lose.

You live you hate
You hurt you take
You drink smoke
And lie.
You cry
You die then forgotten
You lived life with hate inside.

Your born you grow
Your taught you learn.
A choice you choose.
The right one you win.

You live you laugh
Your strong your healthy
Your days are bright and always sunny
You sleep you eat you are rich beyond boundaries
You die never forgotten but always remembered because
You lived life with love and kindness

1,Don't take no wooden nickels

2 Don't write a check your *** can't cash

3 A closed mouth doesn't get fed

4, Why buy a cow when you get the milk for free

5 You reap what you sew.

6 Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

7 Less is more.

8 Take it to the Grave.

9 No pain no gain.

10 You don't miss what you had until it's gone.

11 When it rains it pours

12 If it weren't for bad luck I wouldn't have no luck at all.

And there's many more.

I know you heard at least one of them.
what's the meaning behind these sayings ?

Does anyone know?