My heart is hurt its weight is heavy as wet dirt.
My heart is bruised from the fact of being used.
My heart is beating a very slow pace my heart has been lied to abused and trampled on each and every day. You were here in my space telling lies with every word you spoke.

That is my heart if I would have led with it .

My mind just confuses me and at times leaves me to regret.

My little voice that whispers in my ear .The conscience the one most people ignore that's the voice of reason it's the voice that steers u clear.

I took the advice it had to give I payed close attention and this is why I don't care. Because I always knew the end results I always knew the words u spoke were not true and I always knew that every thing u say Is a line you use all the time .
      I play along to get mine as well . If I don't succeed I continue to charade So I can be sure all hand were being played. I'm not sorry nor am I mad I'm just foolish to waste time I can't get back.

I tried, I tried to live in your world
Your world that consists of joy laughter free spirits and days of sun and play.
     I tried, I tried to see the world as you saw it. A world filled with precious babies everywhere.
     Children running carefree and wild
Teenagers learning living and loving as each day passes on.
     I tried, I tried to live in your world where there are no room for tears no answers of no and people had fun on every angle of the world.
      I tried I tried to live in your world.

But you never tried to live in mine.

A boy that grows up to be a terrible man usually stems from a bad mother.

Don't judge but think about it . Really really think about it

Not all men Remember I said a terrible man.

A bad woman usually stems from a bad mom bringing home to many uncles.

A boy that grows up a descent human being usually stems from a strong mom.

A little girl that grows into a nice young lady usually stems from a strong mom and protective brothers .

So why do we treat woman so bad?

I was protected from life's disruption.
I was simple it was nice

I was humble and not always sociable.
I was not always this nice.
I spent time with others but mostly alone. I engaged in family functions but prefered not to be seen.

I was known but didn't know a lot.
I had love I  just wasn't in love.
Was I happy no not at all. Was I content. I'm not sure.
Am I sure of how I feel.

Not until I met you.
You opened me up.
You made me see things more clearly.
You gave me joy and you became my friend.
I learned good values and I gained a new spirit. My life was no longer animated.
You made me bolder you showed me more than I ever knew was possible

You gave me love loyalty, trust truth.
You had me fall in love with you.

Not to long ago I saw a face with eyes that sparkled so Crystal clear.
Now those same eyes has come to me full of tears.

Not long ago when I had seen that same  face  with a smile that would imprint ones heart as the day was long.
Has come to me not with a smile but with a frown.

Not long ago when I would hear a voice that had laughter and a joyful pitch I can hear so clearly from afar.
Has come to me now with sorrow ,sadness and a nervousness that hurt my heart to hear.

And not long ago my friend stood tall and walked with confidence.
Now she has come to me and what I thought was her shadow has become more clear as I got near.
That's when I realized it wasn't her shadow it was the answer to my questions.
The dark sillouet was a man.The man whom changed a beautiful person in to a broken soul.

A breathe sighs quiet like a pedal falling off  a rose.
  
A stare that burns like the rays of the sun.
  
A voice which travels like an echo in a tunnel.
  
From a touch that is soft to the silence that runs deep like the depths of the see.
    
For love should be spread ever so widely from person to person coast to coast  is every bit needed ,just like the air we breathe.

A gentle breeze and everything becomes slow motion is a sign you are near.
I lower my head and close my eyes, as I slowly turn my head.
A deep breath as my eyes open. walking in slow motion straight towards me , I become nervous my hands are sweating and my heart begins to race faster then before.
A chizzled face , dark dark eyes standing 6 feet tall with his unbutton shirt and a six pack abs. He's the most beautiful man I have ever saw.
The sun hides behind the clouds so it's shady for those few seconds as he passes me .
I can barely swallow and  my knees are weak but yet I feel so amazing because the finest guy I have ever seen said hello as he in very slow motion walked right pass me.