I feel the darkness draw over me like a blanket
engulfing me in every direction
It seems to be my only friend at night
I lay there thinking of regrets
Leaving is just not that simple
I've tried
Silent crys
Silent screams
Thoughts become vivid
Pulling me in more and more
Lover is right next to you
Doesn't even know your thoughts
You keep quiet
so you don't have to explain
As the night goes on.. just waiting to put on the mask again for the next day..

Screams
Terrors
Monsters crawl towards you
their souls dripping into you
Changing you
Nails dig deeper
Fangs ready to bite back
burns and scorns
making marks
I have a twisted way looking at reality
fear the night
intoxication
One more, I promise
two, three,...later
blinded, blank
Wake up with nights regrets
evidence
Staring at the monster face to face
this isn't the end

I feel alone
but i'm not..
I hurt
but no one is hurting me..
I just don't feel right
I don't belong here
the lingering question, why..
Why do I feel this pain..
I want it to go away
Trying so hard, but it just comes back so much stronger
Pulling down
Knowing my weaknesses
I cry..
but no tears
Just left with broken pieces on the ground that I can't pick up..