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 Apr 2013 Caroline V
Maddie
Want
 Apr 2013 Caroline V
Maddie
I look longingly at him.
But he looks desperately at her.
I can't say it doesn't hurt,
Because it hurts like hell.
Her stunning beauty always overshadows me
But what am I supposed to do?
She always gets what she wants.
I know,
It isn't fair,
But neither is life.
I just have to learn,
Wipe the tears away,
**** it up,
Paint that painful smile on my quivering lip,
And remember:
He wants her.
He deserves her.
He could never desire a loser like me.
Why would he want me
when he could have her?
But I wish that once,
Just once,
She could open her eyes,
See that I'm dying,
And I could get what I want.
Say it.
Open those flattened, tear-stained lips and blame me
For all the ways I've protected you
And somehow done you wrong.

Say it.
Tell me all about the smallness of my heart
And the coldness of my eyes.
I can take it.

Say it.
Guilt me into remorse for your return
To self destruction
Like it's somehow
My fault.

Say it.
And I'll stand or sit here and I'll silently take
The full brunt of your tears
And rage.

You and I both know
There is nothing I can do
Because you are blinded by emotion
and you seem to enjoy the blackness.

So say it.
Stain your cheeks with tears like acid
And grow angry when I'm not the one who burns.
Spit the words into my face
And I'll stand
Silent
And watch you throw yourself from the edge of reason
Knowing I have no power
To hold you back.

Say it
and we'll go on.

Say it
and things will change the way they were always bound to.

Say it.
*Say it.

— The End —