And I understand what T.S. Eliot meant when he wrote that poem....
Because I feel so hollowed out.
And I want to scream and end my life
but all I do is
whimper.

And perhaps all those traits of myself that I always thought were ugly were really just the physical manifestations of my pain.

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The

Self harm scars rob you of the luxury of being dishonest to yourself.

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I had such a loving vision of you in my mind. Why did you have to go and ruin that? You. You with your childlike cruelty.

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I feel no connection to that of my generation.
And I take no joy in being an outsider...

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I can't do this alone
And I don't want to be alive.

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L

Whatever curiosity I had for the world has been replaced by either total detachment or quiet despair.

Nor have my best efforts helped,
Perhaps I never wanted them to.

I hope that the world treats you
with
the very same
childlike cruelty
that you
treat the world
with.

Take away me
to the Sargasso Sea
Sail away us
From the nostalgia of our ended love.

Free us both from the night that
maybe someday
turned into
never again.

I hope you figure
out
What it is
that you're looking for
And

i hope you *******
Find it

Kurt Vonnegut said
To write poems that no one will ever read
then throw them away
In order To be a better writer

Joke's on him.
No one reads my poems anyways
Nor would I want them
to

You do to me what winter does to garden geraniums.
Frost does not exist on purpose.
It does not intend to puncture cell walls.
It just is. As do I. As do you.

You do to me what oxycontin does to the heart.
Oh, my zenith of euphoria, the unbearable absence of your pleasure
haunts me until nothing remains to be haunted.
You caress me raw with your fingertips.
Your warmth burns hot as ice on my soul.

You do to me what chefs do to onions.
What farmland does to streams.
What sunshine does to skin.
What wealth does to man.
What maggots do to rotting wounds.

You do to me what pictures do to moments.
You do to me what rats in glue traps do to themselves.