I'm sad and depressed
My life is a mess
My thoughts are scattered
My vision is stressed
My limit is reached
Will l pass this test ?

Is what you love still there?
Is the old passion still alit?
Is everything still within arms reach?

Or?

Is it the days that pass by?
Days turning into months into a dystopian blur
Is conformity now your daily drug?
Of something you once had…

Tick…
Tick..
Tick.

I've wasted it all
Nothing to spare besides these memories
Happy ones are the rarest to spare the least
All l see now is the down-spiral of despair

It's been months since I've been happy
The curvature beginning to unfold
Then abruptly coming to a halt
I wish l could say why it occurred..

I've received limited time
Only to do nothing with it
To change myself to become happy
But only to waste it and be neutral

It'll be fixed one day
But today is the day l reminisce
On the ways I've wasted my time
"Cheers", to the singular thing l wish to have more of.

You can whisper her name
The frost departing your mouth
Because you know the warmth
The hugs that healed you

She was the one,
She made you feel complete
She gave you everything she could
She needed you more than she valued herself

Yet you’re self-destructive
What else will you throw away?
You didn’t deserve her,
Yet you miss her..

Love me  
Hold me
Hear my heart beat
Play with my hair

I'm stuck in my imagination
I can only imagine you
But you don't know me yet

Smile and wave
Deep down you need to be saved
That's not societies game
When you're dead in your grave

Why did l trust you
I gave you soul
MY LIVING BEING

But now its thrown away
My lifeless body being apart of that
Now it hurts to breathe
To speak
To mouth the words "I'm Okay"
I'm not aloud too
I'm weak

You killed someone that warm afternoon
My shadow killed itself, hoping l would follow
I'm on the rocks of despair
On the cliff, barely supporting my weight
You'll get your karma one day
I just guess my life wasn't worth the wait

You're the one l thought l could trust
You make me feel so....

Undeserving  
Sexually Objectified
Entitled to Everything you Please
Lied Too
Every Second Wasted
Sabotaged
Single

She told me i'm not worth her time
She stole my heart, a ***** crime
Only left of memories when you were mine
Now it's gone, l press rewind

It hurts cause l need you
Hands in mine, made us two
What we had, l wish we grew
Cause you broke hearts, l wish l knew

It’s probably the way she looks up at you;

The way she,

Holds your hand
Squeezes your arm
Wants to hear your voice

I could be wrong
But
What’s love?

I’m so used to the “day to day”,
Not much brings back the light
Of..

Freedom
Emotion
Spontaneity
Sporadic Decisions

I’ve grown older not to live
But to fill time with responsibility.
I miss being younger
Being younger wouldn’t love this.

Please open up
I wanna be loved
Whatever it is
I promise it's enough