Im heart broken
A new feeling, it hurts
Minutes, felt like hours
A quenchable energy l craved

Maybe it’s the alcohol talking
Or it’s the bodies together
It’s a club lol
It is what it is.

Insanity ?
Delusional ?
A lack of social understanding ?
Maybe it’s everything,
But what l felt was raw.

Whoever you are.
Thank you.

You love me for who l am
My faults, flaws, insecurities
But I can’t love myself
The absolute tyrant of observations

Brutally honest of what is, is.
You ignore such, you persist
My walls slightly break
But never enough to sustain vulnerability

A false duality
Someone you think you know
And the image of what reality is
Absolute isn’t here and neither am l
Nice try, try again.

I guess it’s the late nights and burnout
That loved faded… quickly turned out
You were next to me, it hurts now

What was there, is a figment of what’s to come
An image I miss, because of ignorance and some
My arm to twist thereof distance twas done

I left things take over
I sold my soul for a price,
I loved and needed you
I was drugged a puppet
A devious, manipulant delight

I’m so used to the “day to day”,
Not much brings back the light
Of..

Freedom
Emotion
Spontaneity
Sporadic Decisions

I’ve grown older not to live
But to fill time with responsibility.
I miss being younger
Being younger wouldn’t love this.

I’m tired..
I’m sore,
I’m lonely..
You’re not here.
I miss you.

Once blossoms,
And grows.
That’s new to show.
That’s left behind,
Is a shadow of memories
Only for the fated know.

I knew l began to like you
When l do my homework at school
So I’d have more time to talk to you in the evenings