Circles

As I sit and reflect on this world and life
I can’t contain or ignore feelings of joy and also strife
These yearly traditions only stand to remind of time gone by
Good and bad, fun and heartbreak, I may cry
Cry because of both joy and pain
Wishing I did better but I sustain
The season of change has begun
Leaves fall, cool evenings begin, and change occurs
Fall is here, the past year is all a blur
Time to look within and like season
Prepare, reflect, and and come to reason
Life, expectations are sure to fail
Yet live to not gain, but give and you will prevail

Spent

The days change but life moves on, and at times it seems,  I am more lost than found

Existing, is easy, living, is hard. Continuing to smile yet troubles abound

Simply we all have a desire to succeed

A presence, a place, we all have needs

A need to show what my not be true

Searching for happiness someone/something new

There is an envy for those that have found, life’s meaning, and how they thrive

Just being themselves and happily alive  

Never content is a curse for sure

Minute by minute, day in day out, searching and searching is truly a chore

Time I have learned,  is not on our side

Many choices have been made and I’ve often cried

Where it began I will never know, being a loner… amongst a crowd

My final desire, my gift, is that my children are happy and proud

Spent, yeah spent, and a little bit tired

I write hoping someone will be inspired

Inspired to learn from my lessons

Go forward, move, give and make a lasting impression

Obligation

So difficult to live a double life, and never truly exonerate the past
So many things I have missed and so many things I’ve gained
Yet it haunts me, and at times I am ashamed
Not able to truly commit to a life
Simply put… it has caused me strife
Choices made with one foot in
Realizing the struggle within
Unable to give to the people that have loved me
My world, a work in progress, yet I cannot see
See that I have let so many down
My inability to trust, my temporary nature, a detriment, I may as well drown
Knowing the cause offers no relief
It simply and succinctly creates a path of grief
I promise there will be a time I make amends
I hope in the end, those I have “infected” we can be friends

It’s a bit tangled the lives we lead
We try to balance, try to appease everyone’s needs
Yet it’s not enough at times and expectations are not met
Leaving a path of disappointment and some are upset

We can only satisfy the needs of one
Be honest , be real, and it’s done
Stay true to who you are and dance to the drummer that you feel
Everyone respects those who are real

Enjoy the time because it is fleeting and there are no guarantees
Don’t pretend, don’t fake it, stay the course, navigate the angry sea’s

When all is done what matters is who you have impacted
Don’t placate, don’t settle, maintain and don’t be reactive
Life will always sneak up and challenge our fortitude
Be you, no apologies, get after it, and sustain a confident attitude

Strange as it seems
We all have dreams

Troubled times are surely ahead
Like a boat captain, quarterback you expect it prepare, accept challenges
Yet those times allow you to enjoy the peace, and not be misled
It’s alway a struggle no matter your station in life, it all balances

Enjoy the good times, take every moment, savor, certainly it could be your last
Forever be true, honest and develop relationships that endure
Moment to moment things could end, cultivate, maintain, stay steadfast

Time ticks away, we often let minor disputes cloud our path
Friends for years should never end over a trivial matter
Regret will take over, longing to repair, you’ll be left with only the aftermath
So reach out, compromise or everything will be left in tatters

True friends never separate
True friends never separate

Repair what you’ve lost or let go
Honestly, relationships, friends, their the ones that truly know

It’s a struggle at times, no manual to give guidance
Kids, moving on, showing independence and defiance
Been there myself, understand completely
Yet watching it unfold, realizing full circle, so overwhelming and there is uncertainty
As life changes and the people in my life go, some stay
I just try to be present,  aware, show no dismay
Our challenges never relent, never rest
All we can do is exist and provide our best
Life moves fast, and the ever changing world makes no sense
Yet in the end, you stay focused and provide defense
No end in sight, no light at the end of the tunnel
Just be true, honest and truly it is a struggle

So strange how fast the time goes
how quick you move from wiping noses
How quick you’re now faced with, a young adult, insides battling,
It opposes

Keep them safe, make a better place
First days of school, an event, a milestone
Dismissed by the child, they crave to explore, be them and alone
Moving through this life has changed over time, more them than us
I realize you have to let go, and adjust
Go forward, seek and yearn
Every parent wants their children to learn
Know that wherever you may be and the choices you’ve made
Parents have been through it, it’s a road already paved
Reach out and know you are loved, and cared for
Because we actually know what’s in store
Family and friends provide a strength for you to succeed
Remember my children your Dad is here if your ever in need