I spend a lot of time inside my head
Makes it difficult, sometimes impossible to go to bed

I fear I have made many mistakes
I review, redo, and I contemplate

What did I do to end up here?
But realize soon after, it has been simply fear

Fear to change, fear to move on, fear to commit
At times I think I am an idiot

However, when the night is done
I look in the mirror and realize I have won

Won, a winner, whatever because I have been true
true to what life is about, and realize there is always something new

New friends, new experiences, new opportunities
And in the end, we leave behind, simply a legacy

Some people pass through your life, and move on

Others, stay, are always there no matter the miles, or time gone

These are special people, ones to cherish

The friendships last through everything and it will never perish

If you lucky to have one or two of these friends

You are blessed, you will have people til the end

Having my Hull crew is the best

Don’t ever have to talk, not able see each other during the unrest

Yet, I know , and I hope they do too

Friendship is not defined, it’s fluid, but it’s true

To those who are in my life, Mass and Cali

You all are important, loved and my allies

Til the next time
Til we all can hang as a “posse”
Brothers/sisters we are entwined
Love, laughter, reminiscing, and legacy

So many words... why?

Incapable, that is what haunts me
Trying to hide from it so no one will see

Incapable, that is a word you cannot avoid
If it is there, you own it, yet it destroys

Incapable, incapable it follows you around
What is it, why, it completely surrounds

Unable to fit in the box that is required
Pretending, pretending is tedious, so tired

Incapable
Incapable
What can you do?
Just live, just laugh and continue

Again! Why and when will it stop
Another life lost due to an entitled and empowered white cop

So many years of profiling and brutality
Others can’t fathom or know a black man’s reality

Daily events we others take for granted
Justice is never served, the playing field is slanted

Rights of all people should be respected
If we sit idly by, we become infected

Infected with inaction and perceived to not care
So stand with our brothers and let’s end the despair

This racism that plagues us has been eradicating “blacks” for years
It’s time to move forward, ending so many families tears

We are one people, human, same blood for sure
MLK Jr had it correct and his word endure

Yet words alone can’t change our lives
We need to stand as one so all can survive

I contemplate all that has transpired
Mentally exhausting, weakening, I am tired
Tired of the drama that I created
Tired, just tired of all we debated
It’s empty now, my heart that is
It’s empty now, my heart that is
Dreaming of the day I wake without you on my mind
Dreaming, dreaming of who I may find
It’s empty now, my heart that is
It’s empty now, my heart that is
Moving on is honestly hard to do
The voice inside, please, please say something new
It’s empty now, my heart that is
But not for long, promises, promises

Another time and possibly another place
Our souls may have outlasted the chaos
Unfortunately, there wasn’t enough space
Fourth in line, outside in the raindrops
That was how it felt and where I landed
I could have asked, pleaded for more
I chose to just exist, and avoid, I should have commanded
Commanded what I needed us to become
But my apathy, yours as well, is why we are done
Moving forward I hope to change some of my behavior
Value the one that matters most, and savor

Passion sets me apart
My ability to love and show my heart
I care so much but won’t give it all
I fear loving too much and taking a fall
U love me back at times too much
I feel it, I want it but push it away as such
Something I want but can’t contain
I am content and independent like the rain
Rain is what I seek
Cleansing me as I weep
And now I sleep, sleep