These thoughts of insanity
Lurk in my head
so much so
it feels as if I'm brain dead.
I shouldn't want that
I shouldn't do that
But who the **** dictates
what I can have under my hat?
I knew it was wrong
I know it's not right
but I'm so ****** up
I want to get in a fight.
I don't think it's attention
I don't seek to be known
But there is some connection
I want to sit on a throne.
I feel I know right
I know I am law
**** the old white men
who have all the flaws
The scariness of it all
But what even is fear?
**** everything,
it's nothing I want to hear
These pains in my chest won't leave
And I don't know the cause
Maybe it's just my thoughts
travelling through my body making me pause.