I'm ending now with all this woe is me
For lack of metaphor to liken we
It's as hypocrisy within the will
Forsaking him it once enticed to ****
I'm not the sorrow I am not the pain
As well the grey clouds and the driving rain
Just the layman guilty in his tracks
We all long for the pat upon our backs
Might pen some cards with threatening recipes
Counterfeit inactive ransom notes
Befriend a shrink to diagnose my needs
Into prescriptions smuggled in our coats
  Much thanks from a pretender such as I
  You've been so nice I'll own the gesture why

Like dreams most dear but thought denied
My wayward love has since replied
A sudden light pushed through the cracks
My humble room adorns like shacks
Will sometimes when some years have passed
But such is life, my love at last

I'll surface some these recent days
My eyes fixed timeless in a gaze
Across what is my circumstance
A hollow gloom now worth the glance
And ponder weather I'll relate
To passers by in my new state

Head's still split, it's another day in down
Cut by teeth and clawed most ways around
The hazey count is still more days in rest
But I can't sleep and there's crime that I do best
   Surface to suffice achieving breath
The longest month of hiding from some death
Sleep in trees regarded in debate
And move in darkness when the hour's late
She'll be soon arriving with clenched hands
And we'll be high like few that understands
   Her love for me moves mischief by degree
So I hold her 'till our arms bleed patiently
   We ponder speculation through the streets
And cast out pulsing shadows through our sheets
Unhesitant to victimize a fly
Wondering clueless,like minds live or die
   31 does crawl it's way to first
   Thus giving pause to street life near the worst

There's safety in wonders, genius near feat
Rest after ruling and love twixt the sheet
Rivers for sailing gifts to the sea
And waves of possibility

I know the manifold tears, these bloodshot eyes
Wait all night for the seamless act of day
Alas you're coming, brilliant and despised
Implies a wider plain of 'how they may '
  If prose would play,this life ain't what it seems
More missed than understood, resolves that way
Between the lines what selflessly esteems
But fades, just raise your head and take your pay
  Yellow isn't yellow every sight
A gift of knowing hovered over you
Guess we'll write,"At least he was polite."
Review survalence, she's been watching you
   Truth, nightmare, rage, it sorts out clean
   While young we should have boasted what we mean

There's still a grown lie in the wake of an  
      absence
Still like the huntstress who waits for the ****
Many forsaken, I'm run out of patience
Promises die, makes our memory surreal
Sly hesitations and eyes darting aimless
Tells of the weaknesses praised in your mind
Comfort through treachery seldom sells painless
And my thoughts mingle murderously next to
       unkind
Go if it please you, abandon, remain
Thrill hungry snake born to venomous rain
Travel your life in and out of sound reason
I'll always have you as a novel ingrain