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68 · Feb 21
POV of the protector
Soulless Feb 21
I wake to the sound of sobs,
small, hiccuping, afraid.
The air is thick with panic,
the kind that doesn’t have words.

They’re curled up, clutching tight to nothing,
lost in a world too big,
too loud, too much.

I move slowly, steady,
lower my voice, soften my hands.
I am the anchor now,
the shield against what they can’t fight.

“It’s okay,” I murmur,
though I know it isn’t, not for them.
Not yet.

But I let them hold my sleeve,
let them cry until the shaking fades,
until their breaths even out,
until they know—
I am here.
im too old for this
67 · Feb 19
too loud
Soulless Feb 19
I can't hear my own voice...

It's too loud... too many people... too much noise

When was the last time I had peace?

How long ago did silence lull me to sleep?

I wish I may wish I might...

Remember the wish I made on that night...

And if I were to pass in my sleep...

I give my soul to the lord to keep...

What soul? What soul?

So long ago I bartered with the devil...

Soulless, broken, quiet in a loud room

The shadow in the corner

Of the party
Soulless Feb 17
Waving the white flag now

You've finally knocked me down

Too tired to stand up now

You're the king of the hill again

Whatever happened to being my friend

Locking my heart away and

Watching as the weather changes

Hope you can be happy now

I surrender
66 · Oct 2024
Thoughts
Soulless Oct 2024
Been a while

They ask how I've been doing

Oh I'm fine

Been about two days since I cried

People say my face looks like a dog just died

Oh it's ok

It's alright I'm fine

Smiling all the time

Real or fake?

Who cares?

Made a mistake

Bumped my head

Don't fret; I'm not dead

Oh I'm fine

I'll say it all the time

I'm alright

Even if I'm not

Sleep is way too hard

Maybe I should just start

Intrusive thoughts say to give up

Maybe I should start
66 · Sep 2024
Truth about me
Soulless Sep 2024
Anxiety
It's calling me
Making me an
Insomniac

Hyperventilating
I can't breathe
I am so
Paranoid

Outcast
I don't fit in
They are all
Staring

Leave
Don't look here
I want to
Disappear

Fear
I'm so scared
I need to
Hide

Skin
Tear it away
Let them see
Inside
65 · Dec 2024
Tarot cards
Soulless Dec 2024
My tarot cards told me

My life's choices all ****

To change my path before

Things actually get too rough

They told me to focus more

On myself particularly my

Quite possibly declining

Mental health
65 · Sep 2024
Morning routine
Soulless Sep 2024
Wake up in the morning before my alarm
Get dressed and sit in silence
Wait til I hear a sound from the other rooms
Go to wash my face, brush my teeth
Walk down the stairs fully prepared to leave
Get to work for just an hour
When the bell rings it's time for me to run
School has started, hell has begun
my morning 6 am to 8:30 am
65 · Feb 28
You...
Soulless Feb 28
We just met...

You're an alter from the system dating ours

You fell asleep talking to me

And I don't even know your name...

But after an hour with your laugh...

I know I will never be lonely again

- Eyeless Jack
62 · Sep 2024
Person made of glass
Soulless Sep 2024
Keep throwing your rocks
And watch me fall
I'm starting to crack
My heart hurts
My minds dying
But keep throwing your rocks
Say more hurtful words
**** me even more
I'm falling apart
I can't take much more
Keep throwing your rocks
I'm a person made of glass
Keep throwing your rocks
I'm ready to leave
Please make me disappear
Childhood bullying builds character right?
62 · Sep 2024
Mentality
Soulless Sep 2024
I'm in the dark
Sometimes I'm ok
I never feel anything
My emotions are fake
I copy others expressions
I cry without reason
Smiles are real now
I hide my laugh from view
I'm not scared of the dark
I sleep with a light
I listen to music to relax
It doesn't block out the sounds of night
My mind is contradictory
My thoughts don't feel like mine
I think I'm losing my mind
The shadows say I'm fine
A new school year
A new therapist
A new plan
A wish to fly away

But grades still matter
But she asks the same questions
But maybe it won't work out
But maybe I'm meant to fall

I am scared of everything
I am afraid of nothing
I want to fit in
I do not care what others think

But I need to be brave
But nothing is frightening as well
But I know I never will
But your words still hurt

A new playlist
A new group of friends
A new set of rules
A new job

But its all the same songs
But I will lose them one day
But I still fail to live up to them
But I am scared to lose it

I don't want to be alone
I am not meant to be loved
I do not want to get hurt
I  am broken

But loneliness is less scary
But I desire it
But I can handle pain
But I am not fragile

A new wardrobe
A new club
A new class
A new life

But it is not the same
But no one joined
But it feels too easy
But I didn't change

The inconsistencies of life.
62 · Oct 2024
ME
Soulless Oct 2024
ME
I can't look up

My eyes are glued to the ground

I stand taller just to be pushed down

Always smile and never frown

Don't let them see they won over me

Just be quiet and obedient

And get home free

Who cares if they're younger

I know they're stronger

At least they tolerate me

So I'll keep my head down

Never let them see

What they do to me

I'll keep my voice in

They want my food

So I'll let them take it

Those boys...

They're so much bigger than

ME
61 · Oct 2024
Morning thought
Soulless Oct 2024
My brain is a twisted web,
A tangled mess of thoughts,
I don't even know all that’s in there—
Sometimes it feels like I’m going insane.

Never have I been more afraid,
Self-loathing hits an all-time high;
I can't decide whether to cry
Or let go entirely, wishing to die.
60 · Feb 25
you've gone away
Soulless Feb 25
Hello, my love...

Do you still remember my name?

I'm sitting right where you left me...

A fake smile plastered upon my face

You said you'd be right back but...

It's been a few years... The kids are getting

Older and have countless hopes and fears

They're trying to make friends and I guess

I am too but even among all my peers I am

Still finding myself missing you... Nothing is

The same here now that you've gone away

Mist and Cloud don't remember you now

But the kids and I will still sit and wait...

For yet another winter's rainy day

- Rain
60 · Feb 25
Sanity
Soulless Feb 25
My little brother...

My biggest fear...

My biggest weakness...

The kid I used to hold...

Whose head I used to kiss...

I tried so hard to protect him

Didn't want him to ever change

But he was born different and

How I saw him and how he was

Were never quite the same...

He's left bruises and left scars

Upon my skin and in my heart

As I watched the sickness in his

Brain tear the sweet kid I knew

Apart... His meds they supposedly

Help but he's always going to be

The boy who he was on the inside...

He's strong and he is tall... I am weak

And too small... So I will hide away

From him to keep my life and my

Sanity... til my fears can set me free
Soulless Sep 3
Paint me a broken heart

Torn straight from a loving chest

Mourning a broken bond

As happiness is set to rest

Paint me a broken heart

With the reds of fallen blood

Cried from the eyes of the longing

As their lovers walked away

Paint me a broken heart

Made from the ashes of infatuation

A child torn from a mother's arms

The cruel decision of a dark court

A grave without a corpse

Paint me a broken heart

Til there is no one left to yearn

Til another love is born

Til the next heart is broken

Please paint me a broken heart
60 · Feb 17
lyrical poem
Soulless Feb 17
Beneath the rain, I find my place,  
The world a blur of passing time,  
Maybe I’m lost, or maybe I’m free,  
In the silence where shadows climb.  

I reach for light that never fades,  
Through all the fear that fills my chest,  
The love we sought, the years we missed,  
Maybe in darkness, we find our rest.  

Hands will hold, hearts will soar,  
Through every battle, we endure,  
I feel your warmth, though miles apart,  
Maybe it’s love that heals the heart.  

Through all of this fight, we rise,  
In every tear, in every lie,  
I see you standing by my side,  
Upwards, we rise, our souls collide.  

Through the chaos, through the still,  
Maybe we’ll find a place to heal,  
But in the storm, you’re all I need,  
Together, we’re free, together, we breathe.  

And when the night is cold and long,  
I’ll find you in the fading dawn,  
Maybe we’ll be fine, maybe we’ll fall,  
But together, we will rise above it all.
58 · Feb 19
no friends
Soulless Feb 19
What am I running away from?

And where am I going?

Beautiful flowers of hope are wilting...

As anxiety grows in its stead

After once again my parents tell me

Why I never have any friends.

Is it really my fault...?

They don't like the queer, autistic, seemingly optimistic

Secretly pessimistic "the meaning of life is to die"

Teen who is so quick to cry

So who cares if I have no friends?

I've had plenty of fake ones but

They never stayed in the end

So what if I have no friends?

I have my boyfriend he's enough..

So... why does it hurt...?

Why do I have no friends?
56 · Aug 15
In the morning
Soulless Aug 15
In the morning,
All is too loud
Small groups gathered
All around
Isolated in the crowded folds
Listening to stories told
Unnoticed up against the wall
As I stand alone in the hall

In the morning,
My stomach growls
A hungry tune
As people passs
With plates of food
But I shall not partake
Lactose intolerance
Stands in my wake

In the morning,
People glance my way
Passing by without
Chancing a second
Look my way
They say I seem odd
I doubt they realize I overhead

Because, in the morning,
Though the world continues
It's melancholy turn
And the sun remains in the sky
I am marked as invisible
Not quite meant to fit in
Left to listen in the sly
Hidden in my treacherous skin
56 · Feb 20
my childhood
Soulless Feb 20
Memories fade fast,  
Childhood whispers in the breeze,  
Gone, but still they last.
Soulless Feb 20
Are my words beautiful, do they hold weight?
Do they have meaning, or just imitate?
All of them feel so endlessly reused...
I write to enjoy the feeling I’ve abused.

But I feel nothing, no emotion found,
These words are empty, drifting all around.
Still, I answered the call without regret,
So self-absorbed, I can't escape this set.

That’s all I am, just drifting with the tide,
My words pour out, they come, they will not hide.
Mailbox full of emails, spam once again,
I write as long as I can, but it’s in vain.

Until the **** finally hits the fan...
51 · 7d
Love is a fickle thing
Not meant to last alone
A place that feels like home
Reminiscent til the last breath
A blooming flower til death
44 · 22h
idk
Soulless 22h
idk
my heart it beats
my feet they walk
my eyes they see
is this really me?
me sleep is fractured
my hair is long
my nails are painted
somethings wrong
the room is dark
the faces unfamiliar
the voices too loud
where could I be?
the homework feels easy
my eyes feel dry
I've got a zit upon my chin
is this really my skin?
no scars where they should be
my hair feels wrong
my clothes are strange
my back feels pained
who are these people in my brain?
is this a dream or is it real?
I can smell I can feel
my back it hurts
my knees feel weak
why does this class have a sink?
43 · Aug 27
Published author
Soulless Aug 27
Writing contest?
Submit a poem.

Wait a month?
Stare at your phone.

Get an email?
Hold your breath.

Take a little peek?
Joy flutters beneath your breast.

The results are in?
Congrats you win!

First place?
No.

Second place?
No.

Third place?
Yes!

Congratulations you're poem has won third place and will be in a book with the other winners as a cataloged author!
FOUND OUT YESTERDAY
41 · Sep 2
Change my path
Soulless Sep 2
Remind me of my name

I lost it when you stole my life away

Tell me am I the villain?

What made you the victim?

Who chose this story?

I wish to go back

I wish for simpler times

Back before you ever were mine

If I walked backwards....

Could I turn back time?

Not to be with you

Not when your love was true

But back to when I had friends

I wish I could try it all again

Undo all of my wrongs

And embrace those I lost

But I am unable to change the past

With a future I look towards...

I change my path
41 · Feb 17
Intertwined
Soulless Feb 17
Time rushes past—too quick to hold,
but I’d spend forever in your world.
Each second fades like falling rain,
yet with you, I’d lose time again.

The stars still shine, the winds still call,
but nothing matters, not at all—
except the way you say my name,
the way your love still soothes my pain.

Flowers bloom where graves remain,
love and loss both carved the same.
But if this life means holding you,
I’d suffer fate, I’d see it through.

Someday, when skies are warm and clear,
when lilies bloom and winds turn near,
you’ll find the love we left behind,
never lost—just intertwined.
28 · 7d
Lonely beings
Autumn blossom
Why do you bloom so low?

Hidden from the sun
Laid among the depths snow

Dainty butterfly
Why do you fly alone?

Solitary in your journey
With nowhere left to call home

Baby bird
Why do you cry?

In your nest
Up in the bluest sky

Lonely beings
Why do you live?

In a world
That wishes you would die

Dear reader
Why do you ask?

Questions life answers
With whispered breaths

Human beings
Why do you scream?

Simply to share
Your thoughts on everything.

— The End —