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60 · Feb 19
too loud
Soulless Feb 19
I can't hear my own voice...

It's too loud... too many people... too much noise

When was the last time I had peace?

How long ago did silence lull me to sleep?

I wish I may wish I might...

Remember the wish I made on that night...

And if I were to pass in my sleep...

I give my soul to the lord to keep...

What soul? What soul?

So long ago I bartered with the devil...

Soulless, broken, quiet in a loud room

The shadow in the corner

Of the party
59 · Dec 2024
Tarot cards
Soulless Dec 2024
My tarot cards told me

My life's choices all ****

To change my path before

Things actually get too rough

They told me to focus more

On myself particularly my

Quite possibly declining

Mental health
59 · Sep 2024
Mentality
Soulless Sep 2024
I'm in the dark
Sometimes I'm ok
I never feel anything
My emotions are fake
I copy others expressions
I cry without reason
Smiles are real now
I hide my laugh from view
I'm not scared of the dark
I sleep with a light
I listen to music to relax
It doesn't block out the sounds of night
My mind is contradictory
My thoughts don't feel like mine
I think I'm losing my mind
The shadows say I'm fine
58 · Oct 2024
ME
Soulless Oct 2024
ME
I can't look up

My eyes are glued to the ground

I stand taller just to be pushed down

Always smile and never frown

Don't let them see they won over me

Just be quiet and obedient

And get home free

Who cares if they're younger

I know they're stronger

At least they tolerate me

So I'll keep my head down

Never let them see

What they do to me

I'll keep my voice in

They want my food

So I'll let them take it

Those boys...

They're so much bigger than

ME
Soulless Feb 17
Waving the white flag now

You've finally knocked me down

Too tired to stand up now

You're the king of the hill again

Whatever happened to being my friend

Locking my heart away and

Watching as the weather changes

Hope you can be happy now

I surrender
57 · Sep 2024
Person made of glass
Soulless Sep 2024
Keep throwing your rocks
And watch me fall
I'm starting to crack
My heart hurts
My minds dying
But keep throwing your rocks
Say more hurtful words
**** me even more
I'm falling apart
I can't take much more
Keep throwing your rocks
I'm a person made of glass
Keep throwing your rocks
I'm ready to leave
Please make me disappear
Childhood bullying builds character right?
55 · Oct 2024
Morning thought
Soulless Oct 2024
My brain is a twisted web,
A tangled mess of thoughts,
I don't even know all that’s in there—
Sometimes it feels like I’m going insane.

Never have I been more afraid,
Self-loathing hits an all-time high;
I can't decide whether to cry
Or let go entirely, wishing to die.
55 · Feb 25
Sanity
Soulless Feb 25
My little brother...

My biggest fear...

My biggest weakness...

The kid I used to hold...

Whose head I used to kiss...

I tried so hard to protect him

Didn't want him to ever change

But he was born different and

How I saw him and how he was

Were never quite the same...

He's left bruises and left scars

Upon my skin and in my heart

As I watched the sickness in his

Brain tear the sweet kid I knew

Apart... His meds they supposedly

Help but he's always going to be

The boy who he was on the inside...

He's strong and he is tall... I am weak

And too small... So I will hide away

From him to keep my life and my

Sanity... til my fears can set me free
54 · Feb 17
My vow
Soulless Feb 17
I hear so many lovers swear,
"I'd die for you,"—as if they dare.
But love like that, so light, so thin,
Is more a whisper than a vow within.

A promise spoken, easy to break,
A weight most hearts can never take.

But here and now, I swear to you—
Not just in words, but all I do:

I’d live for you, **** for you,
Laugh with you, cry with you.
I’d fight for you, break for you,
Give my soul, my self, for you.

Not just to die, but to endure—
My everything is yours.

And for those of us who’ve known the night,
That promise carries all its might.
52 · Feb 17
lyrical poem
Soulless Feb 17
Beneath the rain, I find my place,  
The world a blur of passing time,  
Maybe I’m lost, or maybe I’m free,  
In the silence where shadows climb.  

I reach for light that never fades,  
Through all the fear that fills my chest,  
The love we sought, the years we missed,  
Maybe in darkness, we find our rest.  

Hands will hold, hearts will soar,  
Through every battle, we endure,  
I feel your warmth, though miles apart,  
Maybe it’s love that heals the heart.  

Through all of this fight, we rise,  
In every tear, in every lie,  
I see you standing by my side,  
Upwards, we rise, our souls collide.  

Through the chaos, through the still,  
Maybe we’ll find a place to heal,  
But in the storm, you’re all I need,  
Together, we’re free, together, we breathe.  

And when the night is cold and long,  
I’ll find you in the fading dawn,  
Maybe we’ll be fine, maybe we’ll fall,  
But together, we will rise above it all.
52 · Feb 25
you've gone away
Soulless Feb 25
Hello, my love...

Do you still remember my name?

I'm sitting right where you left me...

A fake smile plastered upon my face

You said you'd be right back but...

It's been a few years... The kids are getting

Older and have countless hopes and fears

They're trying to make friends and I guess

I am too but even among all my peers I am

Still finding myself missing you... Nothing is

The same here now that you've gone away

Mist and Cloud don't remember you now

But the kids and I will still sit and wait...

For yet another winter's rainy day

- Rain
50 · Feb 19
no friends
Soulless Feb 19
What am I running away from?

And where am I going?

Beautiful flowers of hope are wilting...

As anxiety grows in its stead

After once again my parents tell me

Why I never have any friends.

Is it really my fault...?

They don't like the queer, autistic, seemingly optimistic

Secretly pessimistic "the meaning of life is to die"

Teen who is so quick to cry

So who cares if I have no friends?

I've had plenty of fake ones but

They never stayed in the end

So what if I have no friends?

I have my boyfriend he's enough..

So... why does it hurt...?

Why do I have no friends?
Soulless Feb 20
Are my words beautiful, do they hold weight?
Do they have meaning, or just imitate?
All of them feel so endlessly reused...
I write to enjoy the feeling I’ve abused.

But I feel nothing, no emotion found,
These words are empty, drifting all around.
Still, I answered the call without regret,
So self-absorbed, I can't escape this set.

That’s all I am, just drifting with the tide,
My words pour out, they come, they will not hide.
Mailbox full of emails, spam once again,
I write as long as I can, but it’s in vain.

Until the **** finally hits the fan...
43 · Feb 20
my childhood
Soulless Feb 20
Memories fade fast,  
Childhood whispers in the breeze,  
Gone, but still they last.
36 · Feb 17
Intertwined
Soulless Feb 17
Time rushes past—too quick to hold,
but I’d spend forever in your world.
Each second fades like falling rain,
yet with you, I’d lose time again.

The stars still shine, the winds still call,
but nothing matters, not at all—
except the way you say my name,
the way your love still soothes my pain.

Flowers bloom where graves remain,
love and loss both carved the same.
But if this life means holding you,
I’d suffer fate, I’d see it through.

Someday, when skies are warm and clear,
when lilies bloom and winds turn near,
you’ll find the love we left behind,
never lost—just intertwined.

— The End —