LACHESISM
When everything is going good
And everything bad I have withstood
My mind then seeks the negative
Imagining bad scenarios so tentative
When a loved one goes away
I fear they will die and wither away
A premonition of impending doom
Accompanied by a lot of gloom
But then these thoughts so irrational
Which make me dysfunctional
Do not affect the actual
When the loved one returns so punctual
Envisaging disasters which aren’t there
Will not get me anywhere
Lacheism is my imaginary bad thing
Now about it I do here sing
Lachesism is a word created by John Koenig, the creator of The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows, which makes up words for emotions that didn't previously exist.
Lachesism is the desire to experience a disaster, such as a plane crash, fire, or earthquake, to start life anew. It's a longing for a revelation that life isn't guaranteed, and that anything can happen.