I know how that feels, when despite various attempts you simply cannot get this person out of your mind, when you want to know everything about them, every detail. How their hair falls on their face in the morning, how their smile curves. Nothing you do or say could change the way you feel for this person because they just overtake you. They consume you. You could truly listen to them for hours on end no matter the topic because all you wish and want is to hear their voice. The way it sounds early in the morning, the way it sounds on the verge of tears, the way it sounds when angry and happy. They full you like a drug, they flow through your veins until you can't feel anything else but them, so that the minute their gone all you feel is that void, and nothing, nothing, can fill it. You eat,sleep, and breathe them. They're everything you want, everything you wish you could Have. You want to hear all their stories, all their fears, secrets, late night thoughts, dreams, things they enjoy. Not only do they consume you, but you want them to consume you. You want every little part of  them. Not one thing to be left out. You want to study the details on their face, fall deep into the colors of their eyes. You just want them. In all their glory you can't help the fact that all you want, that all you need, is them. You fell in love with a dream and it became a reality. You lose sleep over this person, while you're wide awake they're sound asleep and you're left wondering why the hell they don't feel the same, why they don't see you in the same light because you see them like they're the only **** person in this world and when you're with them you truly see nothing and no one else. You try and convince yourself that you're over them, that you're done. You constantly tell yourself that you don't love them. But you can't change the fact that you do and always will, you may find yourself with other people, but this person this one ******* person is someone whom you love more than you ever thought you could love anyone or anything.

Every breathing moment you spend of your life they are in the back of your mind, and they will always be there, because you can never forget. You will never forget the love you felt, you will never forget the pain you had when they left, and you will never, ever, forget the feeling of having to let them go because they weren't yours to hold, and it was the hardest thing you've ever had to do. You'll hear them talk about other people and you will physically be able to hear your heart break into a million pieces. Eventually you won't want to pick those pieces up just for them to be broken all over again. So you stay broken, and the only person who can fix you is the one who left you far beyond damaged, so far beyond the point where you don't want to be fixed. Every part of you is left wishing and hoping that in some crazy way god has a plan to bring you and this person together finally, or once more. You see your best self in this person. You're happier with this person, you smile brighter with this person, you laugh a little louder with this person. You physically give them your heart and soul, and most, without even knowing it, destroy both, leaving it as dust for the wind. You want to be this persons happiness and to except the fact that you aren't is hard for you to bare. You crave this person. They drive you absolutely insane. Despite the love you have for them you're required to sit on the sidelines and watch them love someone else. Still all you want for them is happiness even if it's not because of you. You know you will never have this person and it kills you because life isn't a fairy tale, and not everyone gets a happy ending, but, they will, you know they will because they deserve nothing less. Everything reminds you of them in some way, you can't forget them because there are to many reminders, to many memories. Anything can take you back, make you remember, and bring you to tears.  Absolutely anything.