A pain hidden away by morals and denim
Forcing torment to my primal mind
The itch for the ******, the lust for release
Intensity overflowing, the cage is too small
Feeling as if I'll burst, the cage doesn't break
My zipper stays up, my morals take hold,
I would rather suffer

There once was a time I lost time
Days felt like hours while hours felt like years
A lifelong search had come to an end
An unspeakable collision of two worlds
Collided for a second time, creating peace instead of chaos.
The hardest of the early lessons had been learned.
The hardest of the worst were on there way
No longer alone, fear was diminished.
For a partner in peace had been discovered

Caught in a chasm looking for the end,
The stone walls growing upwards towards the sun.
I look around and only see one way out,
The way I came caved in, the exit, getting narrower.
I run as fast as I can towards the exit, dodging falling rocks and skipping hidden passageways that I know in my heart will trap me instead of setting me free.
Scared for my life, I'm determined to escape,
I reach the end as it closes, there's no way out.
Up
Down
Left
Right
Darkness.
Losing hope, I question why I bothered to explore this musty place.
The earth rumbles beneath me as the ground starts to tear
A chasm within a chasm I fall
Awaiting certain death I accept my fate
Water surrounds me, the current too strong to swim against
Pulling me under, I'm sure I'm a goner
A log stops me, allowing me to come up for air
Above me I see the chasm, caving in it's final pieces, zippering up it's thoughtless problems
I've made it out alive, never so happy to see the sun.

Who is the one underneath?
Hiding from the self known truth.
A master of deceit, always a puppeteer.
Never the same, a constant new face.
Knowing the light, while understanding darkness.
A monster enchanted, waiting for the spell to be broken.

The abstract vision of surreality
The staggering sound of objective communication
The euphoric touch of manipulation
The unsettling taste of falseness and fallacies
The over-gratifying smell of fascist *******
Humanity diminished by power
Comfort abolishing the difficult
Complacency pairing with transgression
Selfishness receiving unjustified praise
Disorder feeding a psychotic nirvana
Control forgotten from egotism
The courage to change in hibernation
Awakened by a chance for valor
A journey begun, but far from ending
An unknown reward waiting for its warrior
Traps are set by the beast within
Only the strong can obtain peace

My mind is spacey, empty, echoey
Sound penetrates my brain,
Reopening hidden doors,
Taking my perception of time
Stealing my brittle grip of reality
Confusion, distortion, surreal
"Same," does not exist
An adventure awaits me within the depths of my insanities subconscious
A lesson is always learned
Along with a story that can never truly be explained