It wafts in the air
Meadows and plains
Dandelion seeds in a bloom
Eagerly awaiting the rains
A warm fuzzy feeling
Dwells with new beginnings

Fragile and understanding
Just who everyone likes
Independent and opinionated
Is when the society strikes
Eager to show where she belongs
They comment unprovoked
No mind of hers, ideas stolen
Even in her thoughts she's choked
Fight for the basic becomes imminent
Mustering courage she defends
On sheer willpower she survives
Within a patriarchy promising absence of amends
On she dreams through her misery
In daylight and through nightfall
Trying her best to tell people
The world isn't fair for all!
She's desperate for change
Longs for freedom and respect
Revision of ideologies
Ways of life for all to accept
In such a society she wishes equality were a given
Wherein she'd be more proud than scared to be a woman

A happy family is all i see
It's mine ofcourse but without me
At times i feel like the main character, at times the side
So many secrets i hold within, no one to confide
We may be four but u seem content at three
If that's the case, am i allowed to be free?
I need the attention too, i just don't show it
I've loved you all through thick and thin, i think you should know it
This persona is not mine, it's a way of coping
You will understand me one day; am i wrong in this hoping?
The more you hate me, in a way relieves me
Afterall it's better to see ur disgust than the self that grieves me
Let me look at you all i want and give you a smile
You never know if I'll be there with you in a while

Held u for the longest today
None happier than me
what caused distress to u
Delivered me glee
A first that you let me close
Maybe the last, who knows
Once everlasting, now momentary
How quickly time goes
To me what brought ecstasy
Terror, to you it seemed
Through the dark night
It were my tears that gleamed
Would never wish for that
It made me fear losing you
Began delving in past
Ignoring memories we made anew
I take upon me, your fears
In hopes you dream well
Got lots for u to hear
.. and me to tell
New memories to unlock
Together we'll stay
Repaint the walls
That turned blue and grey

Shadows lurking around me
in broad daylight they creep
As i turn to glance
they disappear in a sweep
My peripheral scares me now
Watching them twist and bow
Who are they, what do they mean?
In following me, why are they keen?
Perhaps some game about which I'm unaware?
The kind which gives one a big scare?
Filled with curiosity, all alone i wait
In hopes to spot them, myself as the bait
wish to chat, if given a chance
That is, once they stop their playful prance
No means of contact
i ought to look out
Leaves me wondering
what our connection is all about
Unknown, where do they remember me from
Originated from the fields of calm
or the plains of storm?
Anxiously i wait for their arrival
like a guest for the host
Are they really shadows?
Perhaps, some forgotten ghost?
I rush outside hearing their silent sound
In hopes it's me who finds them, not the other way round

To capture you with my eyes
your beauty beyond containment
It's how the light falls perfectly
When my eyes meet yours
The glimmer visible and serene
As you dive deep into my mind
No shadows or flashes
Your pristine self
Divine before me

Like a crack
That's how happiness ends
Breaking the mirror
Sorrows creep out
Sudden and Swift
Hit you without a sound
Creeping up on the loved ones
A moment of enjoyment turns
Scars and tears invade
A home once warm
Unable to react, eyes well up
Regrets left in minds
Mistakes of the past resurface
The future uncertain
Darkness looms over
Engulfing a home like shadow
Omens become clear
A thing of joy with sadness in pursuit
That's when u know death's been near

Treat me with kindness
My heart's not made of steel
Brimming with emotions
It's conditioned to feel
Your ignorance causes alot of harm
Incurring a cold gaze, once warm
Words inflict new scars
Right when old ones had begun to heal
Reminiscing our moments together
Those memories i seal
Hold them dear in my heart and mind
Your pristine self, i fail to find
Time spent together, i miss the most
Your affections and soft demeanor
Reminisce it all now that it's lost
Nowadays you only seem meaner  
Craved your attention and care
All that would vanish with time, who knew?
The slight hate doesn't stay hidden
Reminder of past pours in
Your actions left for me to dwell
Like a bad burn on the skin
Tears well up unknowingly
Paralysis of past becomes one with present
Keeping ahold of my love
The you of today is the one I resent
Am i that unlovable, u seek others
Find comfort in everyone, but us?

You and your things gone
Seconds seem to last forever
Ticking time, present stuck in the past
I seem to miss you more than ever
I was late and you left
It all seems weird and scary
A touch lingers on my fingertips
Feels like a nightmare
As I try to keep you forever
In mind and heart  
Wake me so I embrace you once more
I write and write, multiple times
To a destination with no address
In hopes it finds you
To relay what's unsaid
An emptiness in our lives you've made
With the space we took for granted  
Your peaceful farewell, a relief to all
If that's really what you wanted..

Imagine myself hanging
A sturdy place I seek
Oh! How I wonder
If I'll survive the week
Reasons I find
But are there any?
Additions occur
Not joy but misery
Death's kiss I desire
Securing the fire of life
Unable to digest
Disputes & chaos
Morals lie in graves
No wrong or right
Change occuring
No future in sight

Are they right?
In saying I'm the cause of their plight
Are they right?
In making me shed tears through the night
Are they right?
In making me question my might
Are they really right ?
Doing harm, engaging everyday in a fight
Unaware of my struggles without a care
Would the reality give them a big scare?
Probably not, because
Maybe I'm not the real cause
It isn't me who needs Changing
It's them, who always come raging
Finding faults in my happy time
As if me laughing was a crime
For granted my love taken
All our deep talks forsaken
In shunning me they come first
Make me look at myself as if I'm the worst
Conversations of the past, they love to bring back
Older in age, its the compassion they lack
For my well being and life
Would they be willing enough to end this strife ?
Their ill behaviour won't make me admit
To keep them deluded with a win, the tongue that i bit
With people like them, i should stop engaging
Because it's really not me who needs changing
Our relationship, no more i wish to restore
Won't beg for your shoulder to cry on anymore

When at my worst
Conceived it
Like a present
Received it
As a lesson
Believed it
Estranged me frm the dark side
Made me rethink
Longed for another chance
The world changed in a blink
Thoughts did turn
Epiphany blessed upon
Washed ashore, once fated to sink

Does being humane
And being a human the same thing?
Can we guarantee morality
Are we more rational than animals
Or plain cruel and conniving
Never have I ever heard
A conspiracy involving beasts
Always an accident and never a crime
Then why do we cage them
And let killers, rapists, pedophiles roam
Why are mice and rabbits test subjects
When we have enough humans deserving
Is it not a privilege
To be guilty and stay free meanwhile
They barely survive behind bars
We don't deserve them
They are worth more than anyone
Failed to acknowledge
Their vulnerability keeping them at loss
With our inability to redeem them
Humanity remains a lost cause

Loss is unwanted
A dreadful time
The selfless become greedy
Sulking to keep what's theirs
..or had been
Out of sight, still lingering
Mind and heart full
Wishing on a miracle
Cradling memories
Cursing life, delusions clarified
Fragility of life hits  
Hope lost with no sign of return
Life goes on
Heart burning in the midst
How ironic
The one lost is free,
The survivors left behind  
Guilt, melancholy, anger
Creating an evil blend
Counting days, for when their own wud end.