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68 · Apr 28
(N)Ever After
Austin Apr 28
For those who know disaster
For those who know loving laughter

Those who know bitter
Ends
And those who know sweet Beginnings

Ever after only exists
For some
Call it Schrodinger's Fairy Tale
68 · Jun 24
96
Austin Jun 24
96
Let this be a reminder
That while hell
Is cruel and horrific
It was this world
That made me
As dysfunctional
And disgusting
As I am
Hell isn't my
Designer
68 · Jul 29
Dang
Austin Jul 29
You say things
I don't understand
Tell me I'm free to go
But still under your hand
You do things
I question and you lie
Tell me I'm free to go
Only way I'll be free is if I die
67 · Jun 24
97
Austin Jun 24
97
I close my eyes
And pretend
No.
I don't want to know
Its not in my control
No.
You took everything
Gave it all to someone new
No.
You did what you had to
I can't be bitter
No?
67 · Apr 30
Let Me In
Austin Apr 30
I've been looking
For God in silence
Screaming for help
In empty horizons

I've been hurting
For as long as I can remember
Crying pitiful tears while my body
Begs to surrender
66 · Apr 30
The Chase
Austin Apr 30
I'm chasing you for love
And I don't think it's all your fault
I get too attached
Pretend like this is mine to have
Its not though
...
66 · Aug 13
Smoke Signal
Austin Aug 13
my anger
no longer fuels the fire
that set my life ablaze
no longer controls
the effort i give life
no longer am i a house
drowning in flames
i am akin to a stick of incense
with my smoke descending
ever so gently
just to prove that i still burn
just not to the same degrees
Austin May 2
Escape comes at a cost
But I've been so ******* lost
I forgot what I'm running from
And now I'm

I want to be here
For everyone I love
But I can't do this
And now I'm

Holding

A bottle of pills
A gun
A steering wheel
A thick piece of rope
A straight razor
A whole bunch of bad decisions
66 · Aug 10
passage
Austin Aug 10
if life is warfare
then i am merely
a carrier pigeon
trying to not get
blown out of the sky
65 · Jul 28
figures
Austin Jul 28
Lay my cards on the table
Only to see yours are better
Stretch my bloodied hands out
Only to see yours are clean
Hide in the cemetery
Only to see you
65 · Jun 10
57
Austin Jun 10
57
I doth not knoweth
What m're I couldst sayeth
To changeth our loveth
Thy tears
Mine own blood
We has't both poured
M're than enow
To filleth cups ov'r
Thy eyes
Mine own lips
Has't spoken enow
To filleth books ov'r
65 · Jun 23
92
Austin Jun 23
92
Shaking like a leaf
In a bitter wind
Trying to just hold on
To what's holding me down
Knowing if I can't
I'll float to a place
I don't know
And just skitter around
65 · Jul 4
Beso
Austin Jul 4
Hold me close
Hold me tight
Kiss me once more
To say goodnight

I am here for now
I won't always be
So kiss me once more
Cause you love me
65 · May 15
the ----->
Austin May 15
i hope
you find the way out
a way to not let your system
be so nervous

i hope
you find the way to walk
a way to live in peace
and not be so torn up
64 · Jun 24
95
Austin Jun 24
95
Can't bury myself
Killed every piece
Of myself I loved
After what you did
It only felt right
To leave you with
The shovel
64 · Jul 29
1212
Austin Jul 29
The feeling is fleeting
And what's collapsing the ceiling
The moments I've lost
And the friends that I've tossed
Love that won't last
And memories of the past
The waves keep on breaking
And the world keeps on taking
I'd play a pitiful little song
And the notes would be dead wrong
64 · Apr 30
Sightless
Austin Apr 30
You left a note

Never heard your cries
You weren't singing
Never was a lullaby

You were bled dry
Ate completely alive
I never saw it

You left a note
63 · Jun 3
44
Austin Jun 3
44
I would douse myself in kerosene
Just for you to look my way
I would jump off a building
Just so you see how I'm falling for you
I would lose everything I own
Just to show I need nothing else
62 · Jun 5
48
Austin Jun 5
48
Here's a toast
To the nights
That ruined me
To the people
Who left my world
To the days
When I wasn't broken

Here's a toast
To all of those
And my ghost
62 · May 27
39
Austin May 27
39
for hours
i could lay here
staring at your structure
high cheekbones
that only the gentlest of hands
could caress and not get cut
you could lay here
for hours
62 · Apr 1
Placement
Austin Apr 1
I'd love to meet you halfway,
I just don't think today is the day,
Wrap yourself around me,
Let whatever this is be.

Reflections of souls beneath the moon's glare,  
A cruel embrace leaves scars I must bear,
The fire of my past now a flickering flame,  
Faded photographs whispering names I don't claim.  

Crimson skies bleed with my forgotten cries,  
The weight of the past like a shroud that denies,
Chained to the moments that scream in vain,  
Like a tornado in my heart, driving me insane.

As the hourglass shatters, and time slips away,  
I embrace the blame, a small price to pay,  
In a labyrinth of memories, I search for the light,  
But every step forward pulls me farther into the night.  

In the mistakes of yesterday, where the sunlight fades,  
Disbelief in my veins and loathing that invades,
Acceptance deep in my soul,  
Hate entangles, a noose on a pole.

In the silence of dawn, I find peace in decay,  
As I stand on the edge, I'm letting the shadows stay,
I am the echo that I want to erase,
In my heavy heart may I find my place.
61 · Jun 20
87
Austin Jun 20
87
I can't feel a thing
I hope you're wishing
It was still your hands
Wrapped around my throat
I'm so ******* numb
I hope you're wishing
It was still your body
Intertwined with mine
61 · Jun 3
46
Austin Jun 3
46
They say you put your partner first
I say I could never
Not because I'm selfish
But because I don't need a servant
Everything should be done together
Done in harmony
Not give and take
I don't want to cause strain
On what we built
Thats how most of those stories
End in collapse and crumbles
61 · Jul 13
@U
Austin Jul 13
@U
I couldn't have asked
Or prayed to the gods
For anything better
You watched me fight
And claw my way
Through so much
You know I'm not perfect
After all of that
You still decided
To choose me
60 · Aug 17
Fluke or Fate
Austin Aug 17
Tie the noose
Only to be hung upside down
Call the time
Only for the clock to rewind
Close the curtains
Only to hear calls for an encore
Reach for the gun
Only to have no ammunition
60 · Aug 12
down n twist
Austin Aug 12
i know
the meds
keep me
steady
but then
when things
become very
choppy
one med
turns to two
two to three
and i start to
lose all of me
59 · Aug 24
Is The Water Still?
Austin Aug 24
I say that I have made peace with my past,
But have I really?
Or have I pushed it to the depths of my mind,
In an attempt to never acknowledge it?
59 · May 27
sucker
Austin May 27
I let your eyes beg me to stay
You let me drift back into your arms
Only to push me away
Not too long after
58 · Jul 5
Apparatus
Austin Jul 5
Been underwater
For so ****
Long
Didn't think
Anybody would
Care
Then from
Nowhere you
Appear
In your hands
A second
Chance
57 · Aug 8
-44⁰
Austin Aug 8
broken roses
and busted dreams
nothing ends well
or so it seems
the emptiness will consume
and clarity will
find you soon
57 · Aug 4
thirsty
Austin Aug 4
you only realize
how bad you needed something
when it finally shows up
like when you've been thirsty
drinking from toxic puddles
managing with just that
until real water arrives
and then you understand
you never had what you needed
now that you do
although it seems foreign
you cannot get enough of it
57 · Apr 30
Lead Me (Or Don't)
Austin Apr 30
I don't know where
We were led astray
Been told to look up
But all I see is devils above
And angels below
All the right intentions have paved
The way to hell
Lies and misdirections have guided
The way to heaven
56 · Jul 21
love waits
Austin Jul 21
Oh the tempus
I wasted
By not making
Thee mineth
Thee w're thence
Lingering
We knoweth each oth'r
So well
Lets not wasteth
Aught m're
56 · Apr 28
Stitched Lies
Austin Apr 28
I can't look you in the eyes
For you have sewed mine
"Is it really different?"
Love is blind.

I haven't seen light in so long
I don't even know what is wrong
"Is it just you and me?"
Maybe in my mind.

And for the first time
I opened my eyes
Feeling the yarn rip
Only to find

You. Aren't. Here.
56 · Jun 29
Č̣
Austin Jun 29
Closure
Found in Closets
Full of proverbial skeletons
Or if its recent trauma
I suppose its
Carcasses
55 · Aug 23
wash, rinse, repeat?
Austin Aug 23
reduced to nothing
unsure of everything
cornered by your words
imprisoned by my naivete

my chains appear to be made
of peonies and tulips
my walls appear to be more
like murals of better times

i lack the decisivness
to make the decision
i plead pitifully to find the might
to step into that decision easily
55 · May 9
A - ?
Austin May 9
A drunk without a drink
A river with no beginning
A street with no cars or pedestrians
A bar with no patrons
A mountain with no peak
A bustling city with no noise
A fiend without a drug
A valley with no bottom
A beggar with no cardboard sign

I am a -
55 · Apr 30
Eh
Austin Apr 30
Eh
I live in my own creation
Or I live in a godless simulation
Eh, its about the same.
55 · Jul 30
Distraction
Austin Jul 30
You make it difficult
To write about loss
And tragedy
And heartbreak
And all the other things
I start writing something
You just smiling
Just looking in my direction
Is enough to wash it away
You ask what I'm writing
I answer honestly
And say nothing
Because what I was going to
Isn't as beautiful and joyous
As you
55 · Jul 3
For You
Austin Jul 3
Contemplate suicide
Yet worry about death
The man I was
Died a long time ago
The man I am
Will die soon
And the man I'll become
Will die eventually
This may sound depressing
But when you realize
I'm becoming somebody
I never thought I would be
Just for her
And to eventually lay to rest
With her
You realize it's the most beautiful
Love story ever told.
54 · Apr 5
Is
Austin Apr 5
Is
Everything you didn't ask for
Nothing like the last *****

Said I wouldn't let feelings creep
Now we're rolling way too deep

You know me far too well
Now you see my complete hell

Not who you want
Not when you wanted it
Not who you need
Not when you needed it

Both still here so that's just life.
54 · Sep 10
Persistence
Austin Sep 10
Remain fluid
In a world of friction
Remain humble
In a world of glory
Remain honest
In a world of deceit
Remain steadfast
In a world of imbalance
Remain alive
In a world of death

If you just remain
I will remain here
With you
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