You called again out of the blue
I almost didn't answer
We played our usual game of honest lies
I love you, I miss you - that can't be true
The door is inching closer to it's slam
I feel you drift as each minute goes by
I ask myself "how can I still love this man?"
All out of tears, my eyes are dry
I no longer feel a sting as the door slams shut
I expect it, knowing it will come
And in some ways, glad it does

I hold a piece of heaven each and every night
And like the stars above, my love for you shines bright
I often sit and question, what did I ever do to deserve you
A love so pure, so innocent
My demons fear its magnitude
For in your eyes are the answers
To every question of doubt
For now I know my purpose
You're the only one I can't live without

Somewhere in the hidden deep
where my soul's at rest and I’m fast asleep
You come to visit in my dreams
Haunting, agonizing me tirelessly

Where do you go when you sleep at night?
Is she in your arms, are you holding her tight?
Like you held me when we were once one
It’s a perpetual nightmare to see what you’ve become
It nudges and pulls at me while I’m in my dreams
I see you, but you always see right past me
And when I wake your shadow lurks
It follows me closely as I get dressed for work
You’re in my rearview mirror when I’m on my way
I pray to make it through another day

And as I kiss a little boy goodbye
I send him off and on his way
And as he turns to smile at me and wave goodbye
I see pieces of you and I want to cry
His eyes, like yours, are intense
The love I have for him is immense

And for that moment I see your face in his
It reminds me that in him you always live
Every day I fight this war that lives within
Trying to forget you while raising him
Since the day you left, not one day less.