Here it comes again

The feeling that I have avoided all this time

The pain that I sealed away

I’m not strong enough to win this fight

It’s taking over my soul and body

I have chosen to give up and let it have me

I’m cursed, I’m not supposed to be happy

My selfish desires, wanting to smile

Made me forget what I have been through

My heart is weak, it can’t contain joy

Love happiness light are just myths

Pain darkness loneliness are what my life is made of

Living with a tired and worn out spirit

A loud scream stuck in my chest tearing me apart

Tears in my eyes not allowed to fall

Trying hard every single day my strength is fading away

Depending on my dying soul and tired body

Trying to grab my smile that got tired of my lifeless face

Praying that one day someone will take away my curse.