love is not when you feel butterflies in your tummy
it's when he leaves
but those butterflies still can't escape

I grew,
Not the kind of mental growth that makes you a whole new person,
Nor the kind of physical growth that would turn eyes

But I grew out-
Out of him,
Out of love.

They say forgiving makes you a bigger person,
But I believe the growth that come with forgiving is so much more.

When you grow,
You get to see the world,
That was blinded by his beautiful yet deadly, deceiving eyes.

You get to feel the world that you could not even see what more touch because,
Because his arms were protecting,
At least, that’s what he said.

And mostly,
You get to love -love the world,
Because when you were in love with him,
You didn’t have enough love to give anything or anyone but him.

So don’t stop growing,
Because today I grew,
I grew to love the me that doesn’t love him anymore.

a future without you
isn't a future at all

Love me right
And I'll be the shooting star
In your empty galaxy

If it is not him,
There will always be another man,
That will look right into your eyes- that you will be afraid to look at anything else but him,
That will do things with you- in you- without a single touch of those itchy, prying fingers,
And that will carry your heart- that's gasping for love, in his very rugged yet comforting, warm palms.

There will always be another man,
Just like him,
Who will break your- broken heart.

If you want her sunshine during the night
Deal with her storms during the day

I'm a flower
   My thorns will pierce through you  
But my fine petals will caress you

So honey it’s for you to choose
To protect me or to throw me
Because either way
I’ll still grow

-Aiswarya-

Come closer you said
I walked blindly towards you
Blinding all the voices behind my head- all the voices that made perfect sense

So picked my mind and dumped it
Just like I did to all the other chaps

As I walked closer, and closer
I felt my heart vibrate vigorously- simply because your presence was just too energetic

Yet I was afraid  
I was so afraid I’ll lose it- lose you
So this time I picked my heart
Wrapped it in a box to hand it over to you
Like a birthday gift

I walked closer and closer
With my eyes wide open
With my fingers tightly wrapped around your gift
With my body ready to give
Only to realise it was a lie

A step closer to you
Only meant a step - into the deep, blue, ocean

Along the waves of the ocean
I heard my mother’s voice pierce
‘Love suffocates honey, trust your mind not your heart’

It was a new opening,

A window that showed the tall greeny hills and the open blue sky.



But it wasn’t all about the view, was it?

It was about where I was standing- on a tall hill under an empty sky,

Still exposed and vulnerable


-Aiswarya-