What is this sadness that draws away anything that’s good
What is this sadness to make sense of it I wish I could
The days blend together am I just floating through the motions never ending hamster wheel I’m running through

I’ve been lonely too long singing the same sad song
Please tell me if I’ve done something wrong cause I don’t feel like I belong to anyone or anything
I could float away and it wouldn’t mean a thing
So here I go drifting away in my sorrow
my minds running away
Maybe this time it will be gone for good
If only it could
So I stand in the water smoke filling my chest
Something to take off the edge a way to suppress the racing of my mind
It feels the same each time so I stand in line with the ones who know what it’s like
Heavy hearts heavy minds so many thoughts intertwined
Remove these pieces from my mind
Was I the one you were trying to find
To know we’re not alone

Places we won’t go
feelings we don’t show    
I want to let you know
I won’t go when times get hard
I won’t leave you there hurt and scarred
alone in the pain that you feel
all the acts now seem unreal
like a faded out dream but
The ache in my heart has a vivid ring
lingering down to my knees
chest is tight as if it’s being squeezed
The mental issues align to the t
what is wrong with me
Looking in the mirror it’s hard to trust what I see
is this my body or is this mental disease
I want to be free

This sadness in my heart does it make you want to run
Am I more than you bargained for
Should I be easier to love
Questions of doubt cling to my insecurities like the devils on my back
Like a manipulative attack pointing out everything I lack
Bringing back the dark thoughts that leave me with an ache in my heart
What is this world I’m only observing
The hurt I have been through was I deserving
As the thoughts play in my mind I feel as if I’ve gone back in time to the way that I felt  
Heart sinking to my stomach with no way out
Makes me feel sick to think about
But here I am
The remnants of the damage make it hard to find myself  
push it to the side and see the girl I always knew was there
hiding in fear and confusion
how could I know how to love me when it was supposed to be taught by you
Someone who made me feel disgusting and used  
I want to hate you I want to hate them all