Light of shadow

Every day.
Waking up in the morning,
Hoping for great things to come,
Hoping to accomplish what I want,
Hoping to see the world a better place,
Hoping to enjoy moments with those I love,
Hoping to stay with whom I love.
A lot of expectations come.

But with every evening,
I realize,
Life hits me with every thing.
Pain.
Sadness.
Loneliness.
Depression.
And the worst of all,
Suicidal thoughts.

Why?
Am I the only one who feels like this?
Am I the only one who sees life as unfair?
Am I the only one who thinks death is better than life?

But when I see you...
I wonder...
How do you still live with all of this?
Why are you still here?
Why don't you just vanish,
and free your soul from this life.
Yes, you.
"My shadow ".
All dark.
Just as how you feel.
Stuck by me,
With everything I went through,
You're always with me.
Wishing to talk to you,
Crying with you.
Express out all that we went through,
Together.

But when I see you,
I sense something.
Deep in your darkness.
I see light.
Brighter.
Beautiful.
This is what keeps you alive.
This is what gives you hope.
You taught me that
Even in the darkest times,
There is
Light.
Hope
To rewrite everything,
And
Begin a new life.

Screams of the dead

Sounds of crying.
Either women's or men's.
Either children's or elderly's.
They all have a common feeling.
For losing someone dear to them.
Your heart start to cut into pieces.
From the moment you know about it.
And.
from the moment when you hear.
the sounds of crying.
appears all over the place.
Until you become surrounded by all of these sounds.
They all are crying .
Crying is what translates their feellings
It's what lets them connect together
Sometimes
I hear it as a song as they cry
A song that has true feellings
A song that comes deep from bottom of their hearts
And
All their memories materialize into tears
It's like you're traveling reliving your past
Either beautiful or bad ones
They all become the same for you
The more you travel
The more you feel
And
The more you sing
All the feellings
All the tears
All the songs
All in one place
But what hurts more                
When you enter this place
No
The moment you cross near to them.      
You see their songs
As Shadow's
Black
With anger and sadness
Ready to express it on anything
All Shadow's come to hunt you
Yelling , with a loud voice , cutting themselves and cut you too
Whispering
You are alone
Die with them
Go to them
Why are you still alive
There's nothing to achieve
You are wasting your time
You are living in pain
And
You will continue to live in pain
Nothing to calm ur suffer
No one will understand ur suffer
We know you
We feel you
No one will save you
Just die
And you will feel free
Your suffering will end
Your pain will end
Your whole proplems will end
What are you waiting for
DIE
DIE
DIE
DIE
DIE !!!!!!!!!
And here sounds of screams appear
But this time
Not the living people
And
Not the shadows
But
The screams of the dead
Seeing how their death
Torture others
And
Kills others
Wishing to stop it
Wishing to do something
But they're now dead
And what they can do
Is to
Witness
With every drop of blood
They scream
With every punch
They scream
With every shadow that hurts
They scream
Without an end to this
They say " may their souls rest in peace "
But
How would they rest when we make them the reason to why others suffer !?
How would they rest when others get into depression because of their death ?!
How would they rest when others get drunk every day to forget their sorrow ?!
How would they rest when others be lonely and lose their purpose in life because they lost their beloved !?
How would they rest when they see you crying everyday !?
How would they rest when you change totally to  someone they never wished you to ever be!?
They will not rest in peace
They will know the meaning of suffering even after their death
Until
One day comes
And finally a release from this suffocation happens
And here
The sound of screams stop
And
A song appears
With a beautiful voice
To welcome them finally to where they belong
And where they will
live
And
Rest
Knowing
From
This
Point
On
Their
Beloved
Are
Safe
Here
And that's
What
Means
" Rest in peace "