Should a child crave death
From the age of ten
Should a child attempt seven times
Before even turning thirteen
Should a child believe they have no value
Because of what their "parents" say
Should that child think of themselves
As less than human
Should they think themselves unworthy of life
Should they be unable to cry
For it makes them seem weak
Should they bottle their emotions
And become unstable
Should their house not be a home
For it's unsafe
Should they take the blame
For all that goes wrong
Should they almost drown
For no one cared to save them
Should they be forced to believe
In a god that hates them
Should all of their value be defined by another
Should they not be able to trust
Lest others use what they say against them
Should they be broken
To the point of not being human
Should their broken pieces
Be further shattered
By neglect and suffering

Oh why does my heart yearn for you
When we can not be together
I sit and wait for a chance to tell you how I feel
Even though that chance will never come
For you will soon be gone
And my chance will be lost
If I don't tell you now
I will never be able

The fear that I feel
When debating telling you
Is a fear much greater than any I’ve felt
I fear the possibility of rejection
I fear the possible loss of you
But these fears should not have power
For your presence gives me much valor

When I am with you I feel much joy
When I am near you my fear is much lower
When I see you I know I will be fine
When I hear you I know I want you to be mine

These feelings I feel are very strong
These feelings I feel last very long
If I do not act I will tear myself apart
If I do not act I will break my own heart
So I must tell you the feelings I feel
So I must tell you and make our love real

But what if you don't feel the same way
What if you do but you still turn me away
What if our love only causes pain
What if I hurt you when showing you love
What if I can't love you as you should be
What if hurt is all that we breed

Why should I subject you to this
Why should I cause you pain
I can take the pain I feel
By keeping this secret
I protect you from it
But I hurt so much more
Than if I confessed

I so want to tell you
But I know I can't
Because if I do
You won't see me the same
I could ruin a friendship I need
Or I could make a romance that lives
This decision on whether to tell or not
Could set me free and bring me joy
Or imprison me
And bring me more pain