I got a heart
that won't stop beating
No matter how much
It is beaten,
I'm **** there lifeless
From all the pain
Broken
But undefeated,
I got eyes carrying tears
With no sadness
Dropping off how I feel
With no attachment,,,
Raising hell in my mind
Yet, releasing no wrath upon the world,,
I sit in silence
Reflecting as I create memories,,
Judge by those whom possess
Lesser value
I rather not envy thee,,,
I bottle everything
I have caged my demon
Knowing only bad will come
Within the night she's released,
I focus on the better
That will prematurely come
I focus on making it out
Before I am the raisin
In the sun.

To wake up everyday
with a great thought of dying
Living a life grown
Unworthy of you trying,
The deepness of my depression
Is hidden
Behind eyes smiling,
Born to hearts
Not too concerned of
Me falling
To call out to love
Walking away deaf
To me calling,
To have nothing left to gain
Other than pain
And nothing to lose,
Look upon my soul
And see the bleeding bruise,
Once I carried confidence
When every path did not
Chill me,
To rebuild over and over
Strengthens and kills me,
Crying from time to time
Because the bottle is spilling
Lost without guidance
But all I ask for is light
And healing.

Conceived without love
Carried but never nurtured
Given life, what a life
Without an embrace
To grow and never know
What's suppose to be close,
Treated as the black sheep
The promise of family
Is one the strangers couldn't keep
Protect your cubs
All but not me,
Loved less because of
Whom I love
They spoke of my fate
As if they could see
Prearranged for hell,
There are no wish you well
Judgemental eyes
Family ties,  I accept the cut
The only thing they ever did well.

Probable cause
My life on pause
Felon yet I'm innocent
No evidence,  my story
Has no relevance,
Point to blame
I leave as I came
Pleas gifted
But none I claim,
Label me a monster
Tell me what i deserve
Sentence me without care
Hoping I fall ill while I serve,
Silence my voice
Give me no choice
But to write
I'm the sinner whether
I'm wrong or right,
Take nothing I say
Into consideration
I am the monster
My family looks on in devastation,
Chain me, frame me, despite
My innocence
Felon, I am wrongfully named
They took away my voice
Yet, now I speak
You've created a monster
When you prayed she'll grow weak.

Gossip among jealous minds
Cut me with such hateful eyes
Plague my story with shameful lies
Define me as one too broken to rise,
Worship away my highs
Speak false to all my ties
Label me a sinner whom defies
They cannot see the wolf's darkened eyes.
Preaching to me
Reaching for me
But too dark to be a messenger,
Mislead witnesses catching possession
Not the spirit,
Covered in sheep.

What do you see?
When you look at me?
Can you see the flames?
That escalated my pains?
Or do you see my strength?
And predict just from my display
That I am fine, ok…..
What do you see?
When you look at me?
Can you see the cracks
In my shield
The rust in my steel
Or the chips in my sword?
Or do you see only my sharpness
The reflected light that I use
To guide me through the darkness,
What do you see?
When you look at me?
Can you see I am heartless?
Robbed of my innocence
Breathing death, cause I'm lifeless
Can you see my breath in the
Winters wind
Drawing help?
Or do you see my fearless face?
My unphased composure
My lazed state of connection
To others emotions?
What do you see?
When you look at me?
Everything that I decide
To let you see.

There is a world awaiting for eyes to view
Lives awaiting to be changed
There is no slant judgement to do
Because the life given to you,,,comes once
There is no time to fear the unknown
Because time is counting down
No clock awaits your departure for sights sweetly groomed,
There is a world awaiting for eyes to view
There is no need for direction
But keep in mind this world is *******
Kind as well as hatred,
There is a journey filled with adventure
Waiting to traveled
There is no time to fear ***-holes
They form within the gravel,
There is a world awaiting for eyes to view
But dont be a fool
There are days of beauty and also ugly cruel,
There is a world out there waiting
But only for those not imprisoned by fear
There a sweet happy life for us all
For those who dare.