You seemed beautiful
You made me feel free
But your words are cruel lies
Biting chunks out of me
I've been spinning in your grin
My heart, somehow, still beating as I bleed
I don't want your affection
Its your attention that I need

Look me in my eyes
Show me that your false love is still there
Trusting in you is like pulling out the grenade pin
Then tossing the grenade in the air
Hopeless and pathetic
Yet still,
In some way,
Poetic

It feels like shattered glass
Everything we had is broken
It fell to the ground
And is now left in the open
I wish could say sorry and mean it
But then it would be I devouring you
We don't need anymore lies
Our feelings for each other were already untrue

So I'll walk away
Head held high
And I'll unleash the pain
In a long withheld sigh

Have you ever shared the darkest secrets of your soul
And the person you told just shied away?  
Did you assume it would happen
Because those secrets you felt you should not say?

You go out on a limb and hope they'll accept who you are
Inside you knew it was hopeless
But you still had faith in that wishing star
  
You sit and wait for their response but the silence is icy cold
You wish you could take it back
But your soul you've already sold

Your heart sinks and your eyes grow heavy, but you refuse to cry
Because in your mind your pointlessly waiting
For their compassionate reply  

The hurt and pain is unforgiving and you've lost all aspiration
Your head is hollow and your heart is numb
They trampled all inspiration

How can you love yourself if no one has ever dared?
You just want to be yourself, to share yourself with someone
But you learn they've never truly cared

You know you'll be rejected, because you've rejected yourself many times
So you try to vent your pain  
By converting it into rhymes

But inside your soul is lonely, and in a dim corner it weeps
Within the demons are prying
and no one ever sleeps

In the shadows of the land
There's weathered faces lined with pain
Their eyes burn
They can see the darkness in your soul

Banished to a shadow prison
The needle skips and spins
Turn off the dark
Remove this bed of pins

The walls are not thick enough to hold
The weight of what they've heard
There's a blaze of light
In every word

They say you took the name in vain
Do you even care to know the name
Living in your head
Growing insane

Waking up in cold sweats
Heart cast in the sea
Cant they hear your call?
Why wont they set you free?

Stuck inside these walls
The clock is barely breathing
Face against the window
They all look as if they're seething

Suppressed by childhood fears
All that's under the skin
Wondering how you got these scars
The future is looking grim

The stars all seem to weep
Nothing but dim shades of grey and blue
Little do you know
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you

Runaway, escape
Travel to a distant land
Do whatever makes you happy
Who cares if it's not planned

Jump on a plane
Catch the bus
Hitchhike, if you must

Be spontaneous
Let out a sigh
Leap
Let your freak flag fly

You could live without adventure
You could live a lie
You could live in vain
Anyone can
But why?

Why not shout til your heart's content
Why not live without having to pay the rent
Why struggle through the pointless, heavy burdens of existence
**Don't settle for the path of least resistance

To me it's no big deal
Just another way of getting my heart to heal
It's no use
It always turns out to be a mistake
I'm ***** and tainted
But, then again, no ones a saint
How did I get so down hill?
The consequences of my actions don't seem real.
I lie and I cheat to get what I want
But the memories come back
And my dreams they haunt
The world is dim
My mind is grim
I know I'm always disappointing Him
And by Him I mean God
The only one who knows all
He lets me fall just to prove that he will help me up
And I will forever drink from his everlasting cup.

There was a girl.
She loved to dance with the breeze.
Her heart used to sing, as she swayed with the trees.

But one day the wind stopped, and out rolled the thunder.
Disoriented and confused, she had many blunders.
How could she have known how deep into the pit she would fall.
She hated her life, but was too proud to shout out her call.
Her scandals have her trapped.
For a permanent effect on the mind and heart has occurred.
Her body as well has suffered.
Her will to carry on is blurred.

She should have listened when she had the chance.
But she was to curious and he seemed so advance.
She thought honesty about potential harm would be an innate human trait.
But not everyone is good in this world, and in her heart she has developed hate.  

She tries to forget by hiding tears with laughter.
But a way to escape her life is all that's she's after.
There's always one in the batch that's just like its makers.
She got the worst of both her parents traits, and she knows where they will take her.
She has no illusion, and she hopes for the worst.
Just to hide from her shame and to make the ones who made her this way feel worse.
Make them hate themselves because of what they caused.  
It's not like she doesn't hold herself accountable but she feels that in her life there's been fraud.

How could you do it with so little a care?
You've destroyed a healthy life.
How is that fair?

She was honest about herself, and you have stolen her hope.
For her quality of her life, she has little faith.
I hope one day you read this and you compare it to yourself.
Are you the one who destroyed her?
The one so easily sabotaged her health?
Can you admit it?
Can you walk with your head held high?
I pray that when she takes her last breath, you feel in your heart her last bitter sigh.