One more time
I promise to quit
Need to feel that high once more
And be elated
Hidden from the world
Withdrawal
I need another poison
Inject me to numb the pain

To see the world with a million eyes
To see the stars light the dark night
To watch the cosmos
And see the universe
To hold back the hands of time
And capture a single moment
Lock the light of a star into place
And see the glory shining
Held high above the world to see
Pure energy
Morping into a phenomenon
Gazing into the sky
Displaying a sense of direction
Cosmic

A smile
The first in a long time
Bliss, sweet bliss
Love in the air
Real
No more tears
Laughter fills the room
Your love fills the void in my heart
The sun will continue to shine
And brighten my world

Bending to the wind
Flowing with the breeze
Such grace
Petals dancing in the air
Gently falling into fresh puddles
Delicate flower

For a second I wanted everything and nothing
To be left alone and to be found
To be loved and hated
To remember and forget
To feel nothing and everything
To know pleasure and pain
Joy and sorrow
To feel the sweetest sensation
To feel a lover
And touched by another
To see beyond the world
And be blinded by the universe
To hear everything
And deafened by the sound of music
To know the fame
And be wanted
To avoid the paparazzi
And live in isolation
Living lies
Truths in the open
Drunk and sober
A feeling so high
To find the will to live
A reason to die
An act of kindness
Acts of violence
Addicted to love
Dependent on everyone
A puzzle to solve
An open diary
To spring into action
And retreat in fear
To blossom from a seedling
And grow into a mighty tree
To know war and peace
To be spontaneous and predictable
To know the blessing of friends
And cruelness of enemies
To feel a summer breeze
And the strength of a hurricane
To see the beauty in nature
And man's destruction
To know true love
And lust after
To see heaven and hell
To feel God's love
And the devil's presence
To hear the cries of many
And triumph of one
To have a question
And the answers
These are the impossible dreams of an impossible prince

You were never there
Never a shoulder to cry on
Never for support
Why are you here?
A branch, leaves that drop
Bending to the wind
You are not the friend I need
Nor I want

Godly figure
True love perhaps
Perhaps not
Giving up is not an option
Taking chances to impress
Blue until I see you
A laugh when you are near
Maybe a connection
Tears
The thought of you can make me smile
Broken and fragile when you are gone
Lost in an illusion just to have false hope
Terrified of love
Rarely will I experience this again
Love is all that is needed
Regardless of it all

City games
Cheap and meaningless
Loveless affairs
Never intended
Simple mistakes
Teasing to please
Too far
Innocence taken away

A little more time
Is all that is needed
To save a soul
To save us from damnation
A little more time
To have a second chance

Again and again
Find myself doing everything
Never a thank you
I know this is wrong
Tell me why I keep doing it
I know this is meaningless

Something
Saving grace
Someone
Help me
Was anybody there?
So alone
Lonely time
Night and day
All alone again

Quelque chose
Le bon cote
Quelqu'un
Aidez moi
Est-ce qu-il y avait quelqu'un?
Je me sens si seul
C'etait une periode ou je me sentais seul
Nuit et jour
Tout seul encore

I love you my friend
I do not know why
A sad love story
That was the real story
Heartbreak
For that reason
I have no strength to cry
I love you
Nothing in this world
Dying of a heartbreak
Is too easy

Je t'aime mon ami
Je ne sais pas pourquoi
Une triste histoire d'amour
C'etait ca le fin mot de l'histoire
Immense chagrin
C'est pourquoi
Etre a bout de forces pousser des cris
Je t'aime
Pour rien au monde
Mourir de chagrin
Ce n'est pas sorcier

Black and blue
Weaving hurtful words
Never glancing at me
No attention
If only I could make you happy

Beautiful liar
Full of tales
Tired of listening to excuses
Broken promises
Bittersweet lies
Tall tales
Never original
Beautiful liar you are
How long can you play these city games?
You lost your charm in the end
And your beauty will fade
And nothing will matter
Your lies are your only friend
And love will leave you
Just like I did
Beautiful liar

No more confusion
No more sadness
Eternal bliss reigning my soul
Sunlight illuminates the darkness
No more clouds hovering above
No more rain
Sweet scent overpowering my senses
Eyesight restored
No more waiting
I know the meaning of happiness

Emptiness? Loneliness?
Numbness
People start to rush by
Not noticing the world pass them by
Twilight dwindles, shining sun peers over the wall
Hoping to catch someone offguard

You meant so much to me
And all you caused was sweet pain
All the tears I shed
Bottled up frustration
Invisible to you
Did you ever glance at me?
Did you ever see the boy in love with you?
Did you?

A captive heart is but a slave
And the lover is the master
A captive heart is forever owned
Always set free by heartbreak

Cold autumn
A friendship that dwindled
An old romance that never sparked
A rare smile when we meet
Distinguishing happiness from a lie
Wondering if you were a simple a mistake
Maybe it was a bad romance
A romance that never began
A romance that was an illusion all along

Falling down
Grasping at air
Catching nothing
Further and further down the hole I go

Hard earth prevents me from continuing
Many doors with possibilities
A mirror to reflect my actions, a doppelganger
Uncertain whether to chase the rabbit

If I follow, will I escape?
Or will I become a prisoner?
Captured by a Heart
Forcing me to be its slave

I am a lost child
Looking for choices in a wonderland
Imaginary solutions to reality
Never again will I dwell in it

Cold comfort in this chase
Guilty pleasure of this high
Adrenaline pumping
Alert and aware of everything

Find myself staring at a hole
Destined to be repeated
Never ending cycle
And I fall again

A thief in the night
Lurking in the dark
Seeking treasure
His reward the prized jewel
Sought out by the lost

Firewater
Inferno raging
Burning up
Fire twisting
Scorching
Torching this palace down
Nothing but ashes remaining
A remnant of a scorned lover

Sweetness in your soul
Wrapped in a blanket filled with love
Sorrow in your life
Sorry, daily vocabulary
Another ordinary day
Waiting for ascension
A guarantee

Forgive me
You left with the wrong impression
Cannot forgive myself
I never hated you
No one could
Never meant to put you off
Should have called you friend
All these thoughts mean nothing
Forgive me
I hate myself more with your untimely passing
Forgive me
For being ignorant of my ways

Lost time
Thoughts stirring
Racking my brain for a final solution

Held high on a mountain deemed impossible
Conqueror of a heart

Midnight train
Rushing below
Stirring me from my sleep
Awake to a lonely room
Darkness staring me in the face

Useless
A being with nothing left to live for
Without a soul I am nothing
No eyes to see
No mouth to scream
Only ears to listen to the taunts

With many promises
The wind will carry us
Every day is a journey
Filled with uncertainty
One step at a time
Admiring the beauty life has to offer
And the joys we receive
Life is a miraculous thing

Beaten down to nothing
All I ever wanted for love
But instead I received only lust
A tease
A drug that has me addicted
Committing a sin
And a breaking point in friendship

You've left me broken
A disgrace to everyone
An embarassing shame that won't leave
Guilty of a torrid love affair
One that means nothing to me
A cheap thrill to be entetained
And to feel loved
In a distasteful way

Waiting to exhale
Will that phone call come
Are you going to stay for a little while longer?
Or will He call you to a higher place?

Months have gone by
And it's so hard to breathe.
Haven't cried in quite some time,
Quite unsure if it's still possible.

Hanging on to faith
But I'm slipping from reality.
Entering another world where you're fine
And there is no more pain.

Can I hold onto faith any longer?
Can I be strong for you and me?

In my eyes you are God
In my heart you're the one I love
And even if you're not the one
Nothing changes the way I feel about you

And when I feel like giving up
I always remember that you've never given up
And I'll rise to meet the challenge
Just like you

When I'm feeling down
You're always there to cheer me up
And make me laugh no matter what
Something deep inside us
Is a connection

Sometimes when I'm crying
My mind wanders to the thought of you
And all tears stop flowing
Smiles begin to form into one happy grin

The thought of you never makes me frown
Not once
Because of you
I stand strong of who I am
And live a happy life

But seeing you with someone else
Makes me want to cry in front of you
And tell you I'm broken
And you're the only one who can fix it

No one else will tell you my feelings
But me
Rumors will spread about my love for you
And all of it will be true
But I wish I was the one
Who could tell you my emotions

Without you I'm lost
A perfect illusion in my own world
Where everything is right

But in my dream
All of it's an illusion
Because without you
Nothing is real
The thought of you never in my life
Makes suicide enter the mind
Not giving life a second chance

To be lost in a world
Without love, and hope
Would be like a suicide mission
Full of sorrow and despair
Regretting the past and the present
And what'll be of the future

But as of right now
It seems like a wonderful thing
You're off somewhere
And I'm stuck here
Daydreaming of the days I have to wait till I see you
The classes we have together
But always afraid to tell you how I feel
Afraid of how I feel about you

My love for you
Threatens our friendship
Which might be gone already
But we'll always remember our first love
Won't we?

I'm terrified of loving you
Because not many people make me feel this way
Especially not you
And over the years I developed feelings for you
Which I tried to hide very well
Until you guessed my affection for you

But as of right now
I just want to cry
While you hold me
And whisper in my ears that everything will be fine
Our heartbeats matching each others

I want my first kiss to be with you
In the rain
And never let anyone else
Share that memory but us
Unfortunately it is forbidden love
For us to share that kiss
By religion and others
But I don't care what others view me as

No one should know about that kiss
But us freely
And we won't speak of it
Because it'd ruin the moment and the memory
Of having a first kiss

And hopefully there will be a second kiss
One of the more passionate kisses known to man
And until our love for each other becomes real
It'll remain a dream of mine
A mere illusion in my fantasy world

Because it doesn't matter who you love
It's that you love...

Slowly suffocating
No oxygen
Pillow held over my face
No longer a childish game
If I could breathe
Just breathe one last time
To feel the air in my lungs
To breathe once more

Gambled away
Aces were my foes
Rarely a king or queen to aid
Taking chances
Placing a lifetime bet
And I lost

No words to utter
Mind is blank
Your being was all I ever wanted
Your embrace was all I ever longed for
And I fell for you
But feelings were not mutual
Not reciprocated
Every time we see each other
It is a slow death
Rendered speechless

A life of joy
No complaint
Thankful for every morning I see
A prayer each night so I can see

A life of love
Friends to bless my life
Family to care and provide for me
Nothing short of expectations

God's guiding hands
God's eternal love
God's will
God's promise

Knock knock
Should I open the door?
No, the mail can wait
Perhaps it is a neighbor
Looking for their lost pet

Ring, ring
I open the door
Looking for solace
Finding only emptiness
My only friend

You are trying to fly
Wanting to escape from the world
Yet they keep you caged
Locked behind steel bars
Your piercing eyes capture my attention
Your tiny voice cries out for help
I stand outside your world
Gazing in upon the world created for you
Your world seems to be crumbling
The loud cries become less heard
Tolerable, no
Understood, no
Heard by one person, yes
Slowly the lock is let loose
And you soar through the air
Flying to anywhere

The color of the leaves changing from time to time
Temperature varies
Moody to match the heart

Emotions inside
Hurt with every step
Uncertain of the source
Aware of the pain
Sweet misery
Sense of normalcy

He fell further down the hole
And a friendship blossomed
Stories exchanged with smiles
Today was beyond ordinary
He stumbled into another hole
And found me
Seeking comfort but no intimacy
Wanting to be heard
Not misunderstood

Friendship
Broken promises
Sweet tales of meaningless affection
Trust no more
Death of a friendship

Drunk
Exposed to all the elements
Let me be numb
Let your memory part

Drunk
Hidden in the dark
Away from society
Into a black hole

Drunk
Nonstop rain
Drowning out the world
Drowning the festivities

Drunk
Alone
Drunk
Again
Drunk
The last drop of the first bottle

Shallow as you come
Nothing but beauty can garner your attention
A fool to notice the ice queen's flaw
A fool to notice the peasant girl
With diamonds in her eyes
That cannot be stolen
Only sparkle in the false sense of giving her hope
You are nothing
A soulless creature
A heartless being

Gentle soul
Standing before me
Broken hearted as you may be
Sad as you appear
To comfort you
A tedious task

A smile that lit my world
Will never dim
For I am your protector
I am your guardian
Leading you from harm
I am your friend

Gentle breeze
Slight drizzle
An angel graced me with his presence
Told me a story of his life

With tears in my eyes
I let his life flash before my eyes
Sadness in his voice
As the angel recited his tale

His life is embedded in me
Never forget a haunting memory
Of an angel
With a half-life

Memories are haunting
Plagued by bittersweet times
Forcing its way to the front of minds
Monster clawing its way
Making the sweet escape

Haunted
Never forgiven
Guilt consuming time
Insanity takes over

Banish these monsters
For no one deserves this torture
Banish these monsters
Who tear apart our souls
Who dismember us

God have mercy on these monsters
For they seek freedom
God have mercy on us
The victims of a brutal winter

Cannot tell you how I truly feel
Keep this secret for as long as I can
Never going to tell you
Not a soul to speak to
Hard to be subtle
Taking a chance
To be in your favor